Month: November 2005

  • Yesterday,
    I drove over to my neighbor Ray’s and got my winter tires put on the
    car.  The pictures accompanying this entry were taken in the
    muskeg across the road from here, as I waited for my car to warm up
    enough to drive it.  The muskeg is frozen, so until the snow gets
    too deep I can walk out onto it.

    Today was water-run day.  Our supply was lower than we usually
    let it go before we refill all the jugs and buckets.  After we
    filled Kermit (the green pot on the woodstove that holds our hot water
    supply), the kitchen pitchers, the coffeemaker, and the cats’ water
    dish, all our water containers were empty.

    I was wishing that I had remembered to take my camera to the
    spring.  Not only was there unusually heavy traffic (counting
    those already there before us and the ones who came as we were filling
    our jugs, half a dozen other vehicles besides ours were at the
    turnout), there was a notable terrain change. 


    The spring is coming to the surface about forty feet or so north of the
    outflow pipe.   We can see vapor rising there, but no liquid
    water is visible.  All around the vaporous area, spreading
    downhill toward the waterhole and out toward the edge of the highway,
    is a sheet of ice.  This was a common occurrence years ago, before
    the highway department dug up the spring and put in a new outflow
    pipe.  Now the spring has once again burst out of its
    confinement.  It doesn’t seem to have affected significantly the
    rate of flow from the pipe.
     
    I would suppose that someone with the highway department has made a
    note of this and maybe the spring will be scheduled for new
    “improvements” next summer.  I can’t see them tearing into the
    frozen ground now, and it’s possible they’ll let it go for a few years
    unless someone reports it and asks for the improvements.  From the
    perspective of the people who get water there, it’s a pain in the
    ass. 

    It could literally be a pain in the ass, if someone slips on the
    ice.  The overflow freezes slick over all the surfaces where we
    walk and stand and crouch or kneel to reach the spring.  We
    scattered kitty litter today to aid traction, and I used a folded throw
    rug to kneel on to fill our buckets and jugs.  It’s a lot harder
    now to get the full ones up out of the hole, because the thickness of
    the ice on the platform effectively deepens the waterhole. 
    Breaking up the accumulation of ice would be a temporary fix at best,
    because it will glaze over again, but it will probably have to be done
    anyway to keep it from getting so thick we can’t reach the
    outflow.  Note to self:  next time take the Mutt (ice
    chipper) and a pick and the camera.

  • Alaska’s Constitution

    Fifty years ago today, in 1955, fifty-five delegates met in Fairbanks
    to frame a constitution for a state that did not yet exist.  The
    building where they held their sessions was the newly-built Student
    Union at the University of Alaska, but now that building is known as
    Constitution Hall.  The document they created has been called the
    best constitution in the world (and not just called that by
    Alaskans).  It has also been called a sales pitch.  Both of
    those labels fit.

    The Territories of Alaska and Hawaii had been petitioning Congress for
    statehood for years, but there had not been much action toward getting
    a bill through.  The biggest obstacle to statehood for the 49th
    and 50th states was racism.  Southern politicians had just enough
    votes to ensure their ability to filibuster and delay passage of civil
    rights legislation and they knew that new senators and congressmen from
    Alaska and Hawaii would turn the tide against them.  House Speaker
    Sam Rayburn was Congress’s most influential and outspoken opponent of
    statehood for AK and HI.

    Dwight Eisenhower was president.  He opposed statehood for Alaska
    for military reasons.  Federal control of this strategically
    important territory was greater then than it would be after
    statehood.  The plan that Ike favored was to break up the
    territory and consider statehood only for the areas of Southeast and
    South Central Alaska that include Seward, Juneau, Valdez and Anchorage,
    while leaving the larger portion of the land as a U.S. territory. 
    Proponents of statehood in Fairbanks, Nome, and a number of smaller
    communities up north, didn’t like that idea.  [I wish you could
    see the crooked ironic grin on my face as I typed that understatement.]

    The rationale for holding the Constitutional Convention was to
    demonstrate the seriousness and “normalcy” of Alaskans, and their
    worthiness for statehood.  This is how the Constitution gained
    that reputation as a sales document.  Alaskans had an image of
    non-conforming rugged individualism and general “kookiness,” to use a
    term in currency in 1955.  The delegates worked hard to
    demonstrate their responsibility and rationality.  Once the
    constitution was complete, no one could deny that the wannabe state was
    capable and worthy of self-governance.

    The Territory of Alaska was divided into five legislative
    districts.  The Territorial Legislature was made up of delegates
    who were elected at large in each of those districts.  The
    Southern district included the Panhandle of Southeast, the Aleutian
    Islands, and Southcentral where Anchorage is located.  All of its
    legislators came from Anchorage, where the majority of the district’s
    population was concentrated.  The Territorial Legislature made
    sure that the delegates to the Constitutional Convention would be
    selected  more equitably by dividing the state into many smaller
    local districts.

    The Territorial Legislature appropriated $350,000 for the
    Constitutional Convention.  Delegates were paid $15.00 a day
    salary and
    $20.00 per diem for expenses.  Those delegates arrived in
    Fairbanks for the convention by many means of transportation including
    aircraft and dog sled.  The Parks Highway, which now links
    Fairbanks with the populous parts of the state farther south and
    defines the “Railbelt” where most of us Alaskans live, wasn’t here
    then.  The delegate from Anchorage, Vic Fischer, drove a gravel
    road to Glenallen and then another gravel road, the Richardson Highway,
    to Fairbanks, at top speed of 35 MPH.

    I listened to Vic Fischer, and the delegate from the
    Yukon-Kuskokwim-Tanana region, Jack Coghill, on our local public radio
    station today, talking about the convention.  I’m very happy for
    the opportunity to hear and learn from them.  Not many of the
    delegates are still alive.  I skimmed a roster of the delegates,
    and saw that five out of the fifty-five names were identifiably
    feminine.  Since several were identified only by their initials,
    there may have been more than five women at the convention.  I’m
    quite certain that their presence and their input helped make Alaska’s
    State Constitution the exemplary document it is.

    The Territorial Legislature had instructed the delegates not to write
    law.  Their purpose was to frame a foundation upon which
    legislation could be built.  They were also determined not to let
    partisan politics influence the constitution.  Delegate William A.
    “Bill” Egan, who was later elected as first governor of the new state,
    was elected President of the Constitutional Convention.  Vic
    Fischer and Jack Coghill credited Bill Egan with keeping politics out
    of it.

    When it was formulated, two of the concepts embodied in our
    constitution were notable for their novelty:  the right to privacy
    (which has spawned endless debates and confusion over our supposed
    right to privately consume controlled substances, in conflict with
    Federal law), and prisoners’ rights.  Our state constitution
    mandates that correctional facilities and the criminal justice system
    focus on reformation of the offender and protection of society, not on
    punishment.   We have a correctional system, not a penal
    system.

     Another provision prohibits “dedicated revenues.”  No tax
    can be earmarked for a specific purpose.  The delegates studied
    other states’ experiences and decided that we didn’t want to make
    mistakes such as those in places where excess dedicated highway
    maintenance revenues were channeled into private pockets while the
    state’s school system fell apart.  Our state coffers (with the
    exception of the Alaska Permanent Fund whose dividends we all enjoy
    equally) are one big pocket, the General Fund.

    Armed with the sales pitch of the Constitution, Alaska’s Territorial
    Delegate to Congress, Edward Lewis “Bob” Bartlett sold a few key
    politicians including Senator Lyndon B. Johnson and House Speaker Sam
    Rayburn on backing statehood for Alaska.  Hawaii wasn’t far behind.

    Exemplary as the document is, it wasn’t perfect.  It has been
    amended.  One amendment recognizes the rights of victims of crime
    and their surviving families.  Another amendment seems to many
    people, including myself, to have introduced an obvious flaw into the
    document.  Wouldn’t you consider an unconstitutional amendment to
    the constitution, a “flaw”? 

    Some of us see sections 2, 3, and 22 of Article I:

    SECTION 3. CIVIL RIGHTS. No person is to be denied the enjoyment
    of any civil or political right because of race, color, creed,
    sex, or national origin. The legislature shall implement this
    section.

    SECTION 4. FREEDOM OF RELIGION. No law shall be made respecting
    an establishment of religion, or prohibiting the free exercise
    thereof.

    SECTION 22. RIGHT OF PRIVACY. The right of the people to privacy
    is recognized and shall not be infringed. The legislature shall
    implement this section.

    as conflicting with section 25:

    SECTION 25. MARRIAGE To be valid or recognized in this State,
    a marriage may exist only between one man and one woman.

    Oh, well, bullshit just seems to creep in everywhere eventually.

  • 2 pumpkin, 1 peach

    I had a CFS setback from my day of chasing tarps in the wind, so Winky Jack didn’t morph into punkin pie with bean crust
    until yesterday.  Fortunately the house was good and cold, so he
    didn’t rot or go moldy in the meantime.  I cut him all up and
    nuked his dismembered parts, froze most of the mashed “meat” but kept
    out enough for two pies.

    I made a generous batch of the garbanzo and fava bean pastry, and
    managed with extra gentleness and care to roll it so thin that there
    was enough left for a third pie crust.  I filled that one with two
    cans of juice-pack peaches, thickened the juice with tapioca starch and
    added some Splenda for extra sweetness.

    I shoulda taken a pic before they cooled.  Almost as quickly as it
    was cuttable, the peach pie was half gone.  When I got up this
    morning there was a thin slice left to go with my first cup of
    coffee.  It wasn’t a proper breakfast, so I followed it with some
    pumpkin-bean pie.

    Unless something happens in realtime to stimulate a blog, I guess the
    next one (whenever I feel like a next one) will be more memoirs. 
    A couple of you commented, as I’ve heard so many times before, that I
    oughta write a book.  It’s going to be quite a job piecing it all
    together with continuity.  Sorting out the road trips reminded me
    of a time when Mama and I lived in a basement apartment across the
    street from Granny’s house in Wichita, and I think that was when I was
    ten years old. 

    Recalling that time also reminded me of one of the trips to California
    when we took the train, the Santa Fe Chief.  That time, if memory
    serves, we bought a car in California and Mama drove it back to
    Kansas.  That had to come before the trips I wrote about, and
    probably was the summer that we wrecked the Chevy in the wheat
    field.  We had two identical navy blue ’48 Chevy coupes during my
    youth.

     Remembering isn’t the hard part.  The tricky part is putting
    the memories together in a coherent string.  All that comes later,
    now.  Today is another take-it-easy day, after being on my feet a
    lot yesterday.  I dreamed last night that I was wearing a
    turtleneck sweater, and I woke exhausted, barely able to hold my head
    up.

    P.S.  It was sub-zero Fahrenheit again here last night, but the
    thermometer rose as the barometer fell overnight and there is a fine
    powdery snow falling now.

  • mid-1950s road trips

    These memoirs have been stalled here for months because of a failure of
    memory.  I’d start thinking about these annual cross-country trips
    and get bogged down trying to recall how many there were, when the
    first one was, which year it was that we took the northern route
    instead of Route 66… I give up.  In the interest of getting on
    with my life story, I’ll tell this little part of it as best I can.

    I
    think the first trip was in 1955, between seventh and eighth grades
    when I was eleven, after Mama sold the sundries store and we moved back
    in with Granny (my aunt Alice) in Wichita.  I don’t remember
    its being then.  I’ve deduced that this was the first one.  I
    remember Mama making me take my dog Spooky to the pound because, she
    said, we couldn’t take him with us.  I also recall Spooky living
    with us there at Granny’s and waking me up in the mornings for
    school.  That could only have been in seventh grade.  It
    doesn’t make sense that there would have been any of those trips while
    Mama was running the store, because she wouldn’t have had the free time
    for it.  Therefore it seems likely that the first trip was in
    1955, after she had worked in the Wichita schools for one school term.

    Mama wanted to go visit the family she’d left behind.  I remember my
    mother as having many sentimental attachments, not only to people but
    also to objects.  The people she had left in California when we left
    there with my first step-father Jim Henry included a younger brother in
    Sacramento, his wife and two kids, and two sisters in Redlands
    (Southern California, near San Bernardino) and their extended families.

    I had cousins out there, both first cousins and their kids, my second
    cousins.  There were about a half dozen girls within a few years of my
    age in the bunch.  I wanted to see them again, but I wanted to take my
    dog with me.  Mama wouldn’t have it.  I loved Spooky.  As we started
    the trip, I was bummed out about leaving Spooky, leaving him forever. 
    The only consolation I had was that the people at the pound said he
    would soon find a new home because he was so beautiful, friendly, and
    well-trained.

    We
    had everything loaded in the car, and stopped at the pound to drop off
    Spooky on our way out of town.  Now, as I think back on how the
    car was packed, I’m not sure that my mother intended for us to go back
    to Wichita at the end of that summer.  She didn’t leave anything
    important at Granny’s house.  Our Philco TV and household goods
    were stacked in the back seat and on the floor back there, making a
    level platform even with the backs of the front seats, with all our
    blankets spread on top to make a bed and play space for me.  The
    trunk of the old dark blue ’48 Chevy coupe was packed with our clothes
    and other items.  (It looked like this one, except we couldn’t
    afford whitewall tires.)

    The first part of the trip was grim and tense.  Mama may have felt
    badly about making me leave the dog, but I don’t think so. 
    Probably she was convinced that it just wouldn’t do to take him and she
    was pissed at me for not seeing it her way.   When her mind
    was made up, that was all there was to it.  She preferred driving
    at night and stopping in a motel during the days, so we had left
    Wichita in the afternoon.  I rode in the passenger seat until I
    got bored, then climbed onto my nest in the back, read for a while and
    played Chinese checkers against myself until I fell asleep. 
    Sometime during that night, the tension was broken with laughter. 
    We were going through some small town with brick streets and hit a big
    bump at a railroad crossing.  I was bounced about halfway down
    into the passenger seat, and my Chinese checkers were spilled. 
    Abruptly awakened and shaken, I wailed, “I lost my marbles,” and Mama
    and I both cracked up.

    Details of these trips just run together in my mind.  We went four
    or five times, I think, both while we lived in Kansas and then later
    after we moved to Texas.  It was our summer routine, made possible
    because my mother was cooking in school cafeterias and we were both out
    for the summer.  All except for one return trip, we went the
    “southern route” on Route 66.  That one exception was when we
    returned via Rabbit Ears Pass in Colorado and stopped to visit old
    friends of my mother’s and some of my father’s cousins.  Whichever
    way we went, the roadside monotony was broken by Burma Shave
    signs:  “In this world… of toil and sin… your head goes
    bald… but not your chin… Burma Shave.”  “She kissed the
    hairbrush… by mistake… she thought it was… her husband jake…
    Burma Shave.”

    Route
    66 across Arizona and New Mexico was lined with tourist traps. 
    They were advertised with little signs that said things like “Only 384
    miles to Jackrabbit Trading Post,” or “Rattlesnake Trading Post, 455
    miles.”  Given the buildup, I wanted to stop at all of them. 
    Mama didn’t want to stop at any.  This was when I learned the
    phrase, “tourist trap.”  Mama spoke of them scornfully and said
    they were just there to get our money and weren’t worth our time to
    stop.  I think it took me several years, but I finally nagged her
    into stopping at the biggies:  The THING, Jackrabbit, and
    Rattlesnake.  Little America wasn’t there yet, then.

    I don’t recall which trading post we were at when I got this shot of
    the “Old Chief” beating on his drum and chanting through a PA
    system.  His garb is all wrong for the tribes indigenous to that
    area, and the same tourist trap had some Navajo women selling their
    blankets and rugs. 

    I started my rock collection at one of those desert trading
    posts.  We had stopped for lunch and I was browsing the gift shop
    as Mama finished up, paid the bill and used the rest room.  I was
    fascinated by a basket full of selenite roses on the counter. 
    Mama came over and started to drag me away, saying we couldn’t afford
    to buy a rock.  The man gave me one, valued at 25 cents.  I was thrilled.

    Mama did let me buy post cards.  Picture post cards sold then at
    six for a quarter in most cafes and gift shops.  I was allowed one
    quarter a day while we were on the road, and over those years collected
    a cigar box full of post cards, both the scenic ones and cartoon
    jokes.  The post card collection had started on our trip from
    California to Arkansas with my step-father Jim.  One of those first joke
    cards was a poem:  Texas ain’t so big, and across it ain’t so
    far.  I went across from border to border, and only wore out one
    car.”

    We didn’t see my Uncle Scotty (Harrell  Scott, the baby of that
    family, my mother’s only younger sibling) and Aunt Ella and cousins Don
    and Nancy in Sacramento on any of those trips.  Mama and Scotty
    were not as close as she was with her sisters in Redlands.  That
    was where we always ended up, staying with Aunty Pat (Nora Howard
    Gavin, whom everyone called Pat) at her little stone bungalow in town
    part of the time, but mostly out in San Timoteo Canyon at Clock Ranch,
    the orange grove where Unkie, my uncle Hubert Hendon, was the
    foreman.  Unkie’s wife, Aunty Sis, was my mother’s sister Flora,
    who hated that name.  All her siblings just called her Sis, the
    same way they called their eldest sister Alice, “Mom,” and I called her
    Granny.

    I used to walk through the orange grove with Unkie as he went on his
    rounds opening or closing irrigation gates.  He carried a hoe all
    the time.  There was a hook welded to the back of its head for
    operating the gates, and the blade of the hoe was sharpened for
    decapitating rattlesnakes.  One of those summers, I got heat
    exhaustion and went temporarily blind.  After that, Mama kept me
    in the house during the hot part of the days, and to occupy me, Aunty
    Sis let me use their old black and gold Royal manual typewriter and a
    typing course book.  That’s when I started learning to touch
    type:  fjf jfj kdk dkd tyt yty uru rur lsl sls p;p qaq ghg hgh
    endlessly.

    There was a swing hanging from a big old pepper tree in the yard, and I
    spent hours in it seeing how high I could go.  With my cousin
    Sharron Hendon, who is about three years younger than I, I would throw
    rocks at the lizards sunning themselves on trees, trying to knock their
    tails off.  The dismembered tails would keep wiggling for a long
    time after being detached.  Later, we would keep an eye out for
    those lizards and watch as their tails grew back.  In the evenings
    when the lawn sprinklers were on, tarantulas would come out for a
    drink.  Unkie caught one under a cottage cheese carton for me and
    tied a string around its middle so I could lead it around on a
    leash.  Mama freaked, so Unkie turned it loose.

    Among the things I took away with me when we returned east from those
    visits were a four-foot-long seed pod from a palm tree, and a
    radiosonde that had fallen from the sky into the orange grove with a
    collapsed weather balloon.  Unkie let me take it apart, and then
    let me take the collection of instruments home for show and tell at
    school.

    Sis
    and Unkie had four grown daughters:  Dorothy, Iris House, Leta
    Willunga and Donna MacIntosh.  Iris lived in Redlands with her
    five daughters, the eldest of whom, Linda, was a little older than
    I.   Leta lived with her husband and his family on a dairy
    farm outside Redlands and was just starting her family.  Donna was
    recently married, and lived in Seal Beach.  As often as I could
    talk Mama into it, we’d go into Redlands for an evening with Iris and
    her girls or Aunty Pat.

    That was my first taste of tacos.  Mama had conservative tastes in
    food, or else her xenophobia extended to cuisine.  She didn’t
    trust foreigners or foreign foods.  On the evenings we stayed with
    Aunty Pat, we’d go to a Taco Tico and get a dozen tacos for some
    ridiculously low price.  Iris’s tacos were better, homemade, and
    she taught me how to make them.  I still do it just as I learned
    then.  Another rare treat was going to Mel’s drive-in late at
    night on the way back to the ranch, just Mama and me, for hot fudge
    sundaes.

    The year that we took the northern route home and stopped for a visit
    with Chloe Day and her family, I got another bit of culinary
    novelty:  pizza. 

    Chloe
    and her late husband Tom had been friends of my parents before I was
    born.  Chloe had about five or six kids, all older than I except
    for one girl who was younger (pictured here with me displaying my souvenir pennant at Red Rocks
    Park).  Most still lived at home, but had jobs.  The house
    was run quite differently from my mother’s home.  Mama thought it
    proper for the whole family to sit down to meals together.  Only
    reluctantly did she convert to sitting with TV trays in front of the tube, instead of at the
    kitchen table.

    Chloe’s family was seldom all together at the same time.  She’d
    cook up big pots of stew or beans or pasta, and either keep them warm
    or let the kids warm stuff up when they came in.  Some evenings,
    someone would bring in a big pizza.  Yum.  It quickly became
    my favorite food.  Chloe’s more relaxed lifestyle became my
    practice when I started running my own household, too.

    That Chevy was a wonderful car, practically indestructible… well Mama
    did total one on a dirt road in Kansas, by flipping and rolling it into
    a wheat field, but as long as she kept it on the highway, it went like
    a charm.  Cars were simple then.  Daddy had taught me how to
    adjust the carburetor, and how to pour water over the glass bowl on the
    fuel pump if it vapor locked from overheating.  Mama and I
    together could change a flat tire.  That’s about all we needed to
    know.


    One trip, outside Needles, California in hundred-and-ten-degree heat,
    we got stuck with a vapor lock and no water.  They had been
    charging a dollar a gallon for water at our last stop (when gasoline
    was only about 19 cents a gallon) and Mama had decided against filling
    the canvas bag that rode dangling from our front bumper.  A
    trucker stopped to help us, and he didn’t have any water, either. 
    He asked if we had any oranges or grapefruit.  We had an
    orange.  He cut it in half, handed me one piece, and pushed the
    other one down over the fuel pump bowl.  Car started right up.

     This last photo was taken on one of the last road trips, and maybe the
    last one that Mama and I made together.  We had already moved to
    Texas then, because I had my chihuahua/manchester terrier mix, Button,
    with me.  She’s standing up on that sign post beside me there.  Maybe Mama realized the pain she’d caused me by making
    me leave Spooky behind, or maybe it was just because Button was a
    smaller dog.  For whatever reason, she let Button go with us.

  • Speak of the weather….

    Yesterday, I complained about the weather.  It really hadn’t been
    bad, just cold, a little colder than usual for this time of year. 
    I shoulda known better.   Later in the day the weather really
    gave me something to complain about.

    Doug
    and I had gotten the five tarps spread over the big pile of firewood
    where the woodsellers dumped it beside our driveway.  We rounded
    up the strays that had rolled off the pile so they wouldn’t be lost
    under the snow later on, and covered the pile and weighted the tarps
    with some heavy chunks of wood.  When there was just one small
    tarp to be placed over the last exposed part of the pile, I was
    breathless from the exertion in the cold air, and went inside. 
    Doug finished up and then came in and went to bed, having been up all
    the night before.

    Later in the afternoon, Koji started barking.  He was looking out
    the front window going nuts.  I had to see what was getting him so
    excited, so I went and looked.  Tarps were flapping around in the
    wind.  Lots of leaves and a few bigger bits of debris were blowing
    by, from north to south.  When I paid attention, I could hear the
    whooshing and sighing over the sounds of the radio.

    I fortified myself against the breathlessness with a few hits of
    albuterol, suited up against the cold wind, and went out there. 
    Before I could start on the tarps, I had to chase one of the garbage
    cans halfway to the end of the block.  Then I tracked down three
    of the small tarps that had blown away into the woods, carried them
    back and dumped the bundle on the ground, weighting them with some
    hefty sections of logs while I dealt with the big heavy silver-colored
    tarp that was flapping around trying to get away from its anchors.

    I managed to grasp a flying corner and hang onto it as I climbed 
    to the top of the pile, which  is at least eight feet high,
    fifteen feet wide and maybe 23 feet long.  I got my corner
    stretched to where it needed to be, but it slipped out of my hand and
    blew away before I could anchor it.  That gust of wind loosened
    more of the anchoring logs and the tarp was flapping freer and farther
    away than before.  I made my way cautiously back down the shifty,
    treacherous woodpile and grasped that corner again.

    Despite my wariness and greater care to hang onto the thing, the wind
    took it out of my hand again.  Altogether, I had to retrieve the
    flapping end and drag that tarp over the pile three times before I got
    it anchored against the wind.  Then I spread it all out and added
    more weights around the edges and across it in spots where there were
    little dents or flat spots in the pile so the chunks of wood wouldn’t
    just roll off.

    Around
    that time, I needed a break, so I went in, caught my breath, inhaled a
    bunch of albuterol, returned a call to Greyfox that had come in while I
    was out, caught more breath, warmed my frozen fingers and had a hot bit
    of nourishment.  After that, I went out and started in on the
    smaller tarps to cover the places that weren’t covered by the big tarp.

    I may have gone into overkill on the anchoring out there.  I told
    Greyfox later that there was now more wood on top of the tarps than
    under them, but that was exaggeration.  Whatever… it
    worked.  The wind blew all night, and the tarps are still in place
    this morning.  I haven’t checked to see if both garbage cans are
    still snugged up against the side of my car where I left them.

    The wind has died down somewhat, but it’s still sighing through the
    trees.  The temp this morning is warmer than yesterday.  It’s
    13.6 above zero.  This time yesterday, it was that far BELOW
    zero.  Warmer is better.

  • My High-Low Tech Lifestyle

    Overnight, outdoor temps here reached a seasonal milestone: 
    double subzero digits.  It’ll get colder, no doubt, in months to
    come, but for now that is quite cold enough.

    My kid’s sleep cycle usually runs on an approximately 25-27 hour
    period, so that sometimes it coincides with mine and most of the time
    it doesn’t.  Theoretically, his being awake while I sleep is
    helpful because he can keep the woodstove going through the
    night.  In practice, he tends to snuggle down under blankets next
    to the woodstove in Couch Potato Heaven and neglect the fire while he
    plays on the PS2.  That’s the way it went last night, and it was
    chilly in here when I got up.

    I poked the fire to encourage it and fed some more wood into it to
    increase the heat.  Then I nuked a cup of leftover coffee and
    picked up an open bag of trick-or-treat popcorn I found beside the computer.  No kids stopped here
    on Halloween night, so we are eating leftover popcorn.  Doug asked me
    what was for breakfast and I answered, “I’m having popcorn.”  Then
    we started discussing what was available for a better breakfast, and I
    prodded him out of CP Heaven to take the trash out before the garbage
    guys get here.

    I had my hands full with breakfast prep and was dodging half a dozen underfoot cats
    in the kitchen when he came back in.  He was out of view in the
    front room when I called out to him and asked if he was busy.  He
    answered that he was “just standing here being cold,” so I asked him to
    get the bread out of the fridge for his toast.  As he moseyed into
    the kitchen, he said, “Oh, sure, now I can get even colder.”  My
    response, as he bent into the refrigerator, was, “It’s no colder in
    there than it is out here.”  He straightened up and grinned at me
    as he said, “Actually, it’s a little warmer in there.”

    As it has on many other occasions, it struck me how absurd it is for
    us, living in Alaska, to complain about the cold.  I mean, what do
    we expect?  But complaining
    about the cold is an old Alaskan tradition, just as is complaining
    about the heat in summer and cold in winter on the Great Plains. 
    We have to complain twice as much about cold winters because we don’t
    have hot summers.

    Alaskans have made an art out of complaining about the weather. 
    It’s a twisted sort of celebration.  We take great pride in our
    geographical hardships here.  We have the annual Healy Wind
    Festival, for example, in a mountain town where a wind-tunnel landscape
    creates wind speeds that on occasion can pick up fist-sized rocks and blow
    them through windows.  We have tourist t-shirts showing an Alaskan
    “weather map” with local conditions listed as “partly shitty,”
    “intermittently shitty,” “totally shitty,” and “perpetually
    shitty.”  That last one is in the islands of the Aleutian Chain.

    As porcelain_lumberjack
    noted in a comment on yesterday’s entry, my seasonal stories tend to
    repeat year-to-year.  Life events tend to repeat that way
    here.  There’s the semi-annual outhouse maintenance (the pushing
    of the poop),  the midwinter Outhouse Olympics event (the
    poopcicle put), the autumn acquisition of a big woodpile for winter
    (Ours is huge this year, a challenge to get covered by six tarps of
    various sizes.), and after winter there is breakup, the season that
    passes for spring in the Arctic.  I try always to find fresh
    things to write about, but sometimes I repeat myself.

    Today, I have a reason for repeating myself:  new readersDingydarla asked:

    What? You have an outhouse? Do you have indoor
    plumbing too? I honestly didn’t know people still had outhouses. Y’all
    have computers…. An out house, well I am officially WOWED.

    It wowed me when we first brought the computer in here and set it up on
    an old card table.  For a while, until we got a computer desk and
    rearranged the furniture, we had to climb over the wood box (the handy
    firewood supply by the stove) to get to the computer.  This part
    of Alaska, the Railbelt between Seward, Anchorage and Fairbanks, where
    nine-tenths of the state’s population lives, is hi-lo-tech in ways that
    can often be surprising.

    The electrical grid spans the entire 500 or so miles along the highway
    and railroad, but doesn’t extend very far off to the sides.  In
    this area where I live the phone co-op has extended its lines farther
    than the electric co-op has.  I got our phone in 1985.  It
    would have been 1984, but I applied for it
    after the ground froze and the phone company would have charged me an
    extra few thousand bucks to cut the frozen ground with concrete
    cutters, so I waited for the spring thaw.  If we’d had a reliable
    power source for a computer (we had a series of little gasoline
    generators), we could have been on the internet ten years or more
    sooner than we were. 

    Doug and I lived for fifteen years, from 1983 to 1998, off the power
    grid.  Our lights and cooking fuel were propane, heating fuel was
    wood, radio and fans to move the heat around were powered by a 12-volt
    system based on car batteries.  Lots of our neighbors still live
    that way.   In ’98 we moved in here to house-sit for
    Mark.  It’s less than half a mile from our old place, and it’s on
    the power grid.  And yes, Darla, we do have indoor plumbing. 
    We live in the mobile home that Mark ended up just giving to me
    when  he decided not to come back from Florida.  It was fully
    plumbed when Mark moved it in here.  But “indoor plumbing” does
    not necessarily equal running water.

    [OOoops -- edit:  I left this 'graph out first time around] In
    summer, we can run water down the drains and out, but there’s no
    incoming water and no functioning water heater.  The water heater
    froze and burst long before we moved in here.  Most winters, the
    sink in the kitchen will drain until December or January,
    usually.  One year that drain froze in November and didn’t thaw
    ’til May.  Another year, the sink drained all winter.  This
    year, the bathtub drain is already frozen.  I shower in there
    using a plastic camp shower bag filled with water we heat on top of the
    woodstove.  Last year, the bathtub didn’t freeze at all. 
    This year, I’m going to be dipping my bathwater out into a bucket and
    dumping it down the drain of the wash basin until that freezes
    up.  After that, I’ll carry it out to dump it.

    Mark did have running water here for a while.  He had a well
    drilled, put in an electric pump and a pressure tank in the little
    cabin beside the trailer.  Mark didn’t make friends quickly, he
    sorta kept to himself, or someone would have told him he needed a
    deeper well.  There’s a water table not too far down that is high
    in mineral content and polluted with Giardia, B.coli, E.coli and God
    knows what else.  That’s what Mark’s old well pumps out.  We
    don’t use it at all.  He used it for gardening, laundry and
    cleaning before he left, but by the time we had gotten to know Mark,
    the trailer’s plumbing was out of service, and he only had cold
    “running” water, running in a garden hose through his kitchen window in
    summertime.


    To get to the same source that supplies the clear clean water we get
    from the community spring, we’d need to drill a few hundred feet
    farther down.  The expense of drilling a deeper well is
    not the main reason we don’t try that.  More important factors are
    what we would be losing socially if we did it, and what we would be
    setting ourselves up for in terms of maintenance and care of a water
    system.

    At this time of year, the surroundings at the community
    spring look like the shot at left.  That’s Doug down there,
    kneeling to fill a water jug, before the improvements were done to the
    spring a couple of years ago.  Since I don’t hang out in the bar
    at a local lodge where most of my neighbors meet, or in church where most of the rest of them get together, this is
    where I usually run into my neighbors.

    Some of us spontaneously and unofficially take responsibility for
    maintaining the area around the
    spring.  We pick up litter, deepen the hole under the outflow when
    it silts up, put in new freight pallets for access when the old ones
    fall apart, and keep the steps on the slope clear of ice and
    snow.  My guess is that the group that takes care of such tasks is
    somewhat smaller than the group we’re cleaning up after and looking out
    for.

    The spring is actually under the jurisdiction of the state highway
    department and they have messed it up for us a few times making their
    “improvements,”  digging up the old length of culvert pipe and
    putting in a new one.  When they do that, we have to go a few
    miles up the highway to another spring with a less abundant flow of
    water.

    The real improvements pictured here just appeared, seemingly overnight,
    a couple of years ago.  I’m fairly certain the job wasn’t done by
    the state.  For one thing it’s too neat and aesthetic, and uses
    recycled materials.  For another, it was completed so fast and
    without hoopla.  When the state plans any work here, they tack up
    a notice on a tree a month ahead of time, and they take forever
    completing the job.

    Mark was working on his
    plumbing here right up until he left that fall seven years ago. 
    He wasn’t a good plumber, and certainly not a fast worker.  It had
    been several winters since the original plumbing had burst, and he had
    been making do with the garden hose through the kitchen window ever
    since the freeze up that killed his indoor plumbing. 

    He
    had left the place in the care of some young housesitters who abandoned
    it during a power outage that came with a deep cold snap.  
    When I read Darla’s comment this morning, I sent Doug around to the
    back yard to get this photo of the toilet that broke when the water in
    it froze up.  The pipes under the trailer had frozen and burst,
    too.  Mark had them wrapped with electric heat tape, which is, of
    course, absolutely useless during a power outage.

    Indoor plumbing and running water in homes are relatively rare around
    here.  Some people have them, and they also have the headaches and
    expense of maintaining them.  Every winter a few of them have the
    heartache of having their house burn down due to their efforts to keep
    pipes thawed or to thaw them after they freeze.

    Even in the city of Anchorage, on the coast at a lower elevation where
    it never gets as cold as it gets up here in the Upper Su Valley, some
    winters the water mains freeze.  Every winter the pipes in some
    people’s houses freeze.  It’s enough of a problem to keep several
    steam-thawing businesses working profitably.

    In cold or nasty wet weather, I grumble and moan about having to make
    water runs, but once I’m out there most of those runs, even in winter,
    provide interesting glimpses of wildlife or pleasant encounters with
    neighbors.  In summer, you’ll never hear a complaint from me about
    a water run.  The spring is a beautiful place I love to visit.

    Additionally, the water we get there is one of the best things about
    living here.  Our clean air and water make the various
    difficulties and hardships of this harsh environment worth the
    trouble.  Air and water are basics, and few places on this planet
    have better basics than we have here.

    But you wouldn’t like it.  It’s a nice place to visit, but you
    wouldn’t want to live here.  There’s NO industry, few jobs, only a
    few civilized amenities and they’re a hundred miles away in
    Anchorage.  You’d hate it.  Believe me, and remember that,
    because one of the most important “basics” for me here is the relative
    isolation, the absence of crowds.  It’s crowded enough here
    already.

  • I must clear up this misconception.

    so……how did he managed to drag it from outside?

    Posted 11/1/2005 at 9:21 PM by barney

    The
    topic of the blog where barney left his comment was the toilet seat
    that spends most of its time in wintertime behind the woodstove so that
    it will be warm when we use it in the outhouse.

    I had said that at this transitional time, I tend to either forget to
    take it out with me, or forget to bring it back.  Barney was
    apparently reacting to my saying that Doug had been the one this year
    who decided it was time to warm the seat, and brought it in.

    It’s just a little, lightweight seat, easy to carry, no lid flopping
    around, no unwieldy porcelain attached.  Here it is in its winter
    home behind the woodstove in our living room.

    What does it take to keep a toilet seat in your living room? 
    Chutzpah?  Savoir faire?  Hedonism?  Simple
    practicality, I suppose.  A warm seat on a cold day just makes
    sense.

  • Several of my recent entries have mentioned the colder weather and
    onset of winter.  Today, another sure sign of winter jumped up and
    bit me in the butt, so to speak.  Doug apparently noticed that
    winter is here, and brought the seat in from the outhouse to place it
    in its winter home behind the woodstove.  On my first trip out
    there this morning, I wasn’t prepared, so I got to sit on the cold and
    splintery plywood bench instead of the warm and smooth varnished
    seat.  I also did what I frequently do at this transitional time
    of year.  I forgot to bring it back in with me.  Now my
    choice is to either go back out and get it, or to risk either having to
    sit on it cold or having to apologize to Doug if he’s the one who has
    to sit on it cold.

    The latest entry, earlier today, received these apparently unrelated questions in comments:

    What are your personal feelings about spiritual
    things being attached to tangible objects??  Do you believe that a
    person has the capability to attach part of their spiritual self to a
    possession??  Can that possession be passed on and still retain the
    original owners spirit?

    Posted 11/1/2005 at 1:33 PM by dylan197

    What are my personal feelings about “spiritual
    things” being attached to tangible objects?

    You mean ghosts?   “vibes”?? 

    Do I believe that a
    person has the capability to attach part of their spiritual self to a
    possession?

    I have no beliefs involving these
    things.  I suspect that you and I may have some semantic
    differences regarding the meaning of the word, “spiritual.”  I
    know that the energy of a person’s consciousness can be picked up by
    objects around them, retained in buildings, in caves, etc.  This
    usually happens unconsciously.  It can also be done intentionally
    as you seem to be implying here. 

    If one can send thoughts, feelings and mental pictures from mind to
    mind (and I both send and receive such energy on a regular basis), and
    if that “energy of consciousness” can be picked up and stored or
    recorded by inanimate objects (as I and many others have observed),
    then it is logical that someone can deliberately “program” objects with
    their mental, psychic energy.

    In his shamanic work, Greyfox sometimes uses crystals as “containers”
    for the transmission of energies.  Materials with a crystalline
    structure such as minerals and metals are the best receptacles for this
    purpose.  Often, old watches or rings, etc., can be “read” by
    psychometrists.  They reveal things about the persons who have
    worn or carried them because the mental energies are retained in the
    objects.

    This is not a belief, because I have experienced these things. 
    The practice of psychometry involves sensing these “psychic
    imprints.”  Please note that I have not mentioned “spirit” or
    “spiritual”.  In my lexicon, spirit and consciousness are not the
    same.  I suppose it may be possible for a “spirit” to enter an
    object, (“anything is possible” is one of my favorite working
    hypotheses) but I have no experience of that and therefore have no
    opinion on it. 

    Can that possession be passed on and still retain the
    original owners spirit?

    By now, you probably know that I’m
    going to quibble over the word, “spirit”.  I just can’t answer
    that question as posed, because it lies beyond my experience. 
    What I can say is that discarnate spirits do sometimes apparently hang
    around in a familiar place after physical death.  That is the
    classic “haunting” phenomenon.  In the case of a true haunting,
    the spirit interacts with living
    people, moves around randomly or unpredictably, and usually seems to be
    trying to communicate, often with a message to convey or a desire to
    understand its new non-physical state of being.  In the annals of
    ghost hunting these phenomena are relatively rare.

    There is a different phenomenon that does not involve discarnate
    spirits, which is much more common.  It is the “psychic
    imprint.”  The famous “ghost” of Anne Boleyn in Buckingham Palace
    (?or is the the Tower of London?) is one of these. 
    Characteristically, these phenomena behave like tape loops, going
    through a set routine that repeats periodically without change. 
    That’s not a spirit.  Anne Boleyn’s “ghost” walks down the
    corridor that Anne herself walked on the way to her
    beheading.   There’s another one I know of in Colorado, in
    which a man finds the bodies of his wife and child in the crawl space
    where they died trying to escape a house fire.  The common factor
    among all such imprints is the strong emotions involved.  Big
    events that trigger intense feelings tend to leave their “vibes” behind.

    If you are asking whether an object which is imprinted with someone’s
    psychic energy from contact with that person or from deliberate
    programming by that person can be “passed on” with the imprint intact,
    indeed it happens all the time.  Psychometrists read these
    imprints for fun and profit, and sensitive individuals pick up on the
    energies unconsciously.  Various people have suggested various
    means for “cleansing” these imprints from the objects, but I’m not in
    favor of that any more than I am in favor of burning libraries,
    defacing works of art or erasing archival tapes.

    Doug and I share a fondness for ancient burial sites, prehistoric
    ruins, caves and rock shelters, because they still hold the energies of
    those who lived there long ago.  I strongly suspect that many
    archaeologists are drawn to that work because of the ancient vibes
    hanging around the sites.  Such “influences” can affect sensitive
    people who are unaware of where they come from, because one might tend
    to internalize the feelings and believe they are feeling them rather
    than sensing them.

    Greyfox and I once received a spooky-feeling crystal of smoky quartz
    from a client in exchange for some work we did for her.  Everyone
    in our family could sense its energies.  Greyfox, whose
    visualization skills are the best, read it and concluded that it came
    from a family of Gardnerian witches and had been handed down in that
    family for four generations.  We concluded that the client was
    aware of the spookiness and wanted to get rid of the crystal.  For
    us, its history was a bonus.

    Does this answer your question?

  • Since I can’t concentrate on what I’m supposed to be doing, I’ll get this other stuff out of the way.

    When I got up this morning and looked at the outdoor thermometer, I saw
    that it was reading 3.6° (that Fahrenheit) and I thought, “Brrrrrr…
    cold” until I noticed the minus sign.  Then, I thought, “Oh,
    that’s not so bad.”  Y’see, low numbers are good, when they’re on
    the below-zero side.  As the sun rose, the numbers rose and
    temperature fell with the morning thermals coming down off the
    Talkeetna Mountains.  It peaked (bottomed) out at around nine
    below, and is up into the mid-teens above by now, with the sensor in
    direct sunlight.

    “They” say that woolybear caterpillars reveal when we’re going to have
    a cold winter.  I dunno about that.  This is our own
    wooly-bear cat, Muffin, and she has told me that she’s expecting a cold
    winter.  Although this is indubitably a fat cat, she’s not as big
    as she looks here.  Her winter coat is thick this year, and when
    she is out in the cold with it all fluffed out, Muffin is enormous.

    Perhaps the reason that Nemo refuses to go outside at all is that she
    knows that there is no camouflage value to her day-glo fur.  Or
    maybe it’s because she has no winter coat.  She is sleek where
    Muffin is fluffy.  She has staked out this compartment in the
    sweater hanger in Doug’s closet as her own.  If I fill it with
    sweatshirts, she pulls them out.  She has liked this little
    hammock ever since she was a kitten, when it wasn’t quite such a tight
    fit.  It may look like she fills the space, but I have seen her
    sharing her compartment with her little brother (same mother but not
    littermate) Albion.

    American Cities That Best Fit You:

    65% Las Vegas
    60% Chicago
    60% Miami
    60% Philadelphia
    60% Seattle
    Which American Cities Best Fit You?
    How did Philly get in there??  *shudder*  Note that even Vegas only fits me 65%.  I’m not a city person, really.

    What Your Underwear Says About You
    You’re a total rebel who doesn’t conform to any rules. P.S. – It’s a jungle down there!

    You’re also way too lazy to do your laundry more than a few times a year.

    You Should Learn French
    C’est super! You appreciate the finer things in life… wine, art, cheese, love affairs.
    You are definitely a Parisian at heart. You just need for your tongue to catch up…
     
           
    The Peach
    Random Gentle Love Master (RGLMf)

         Playful, kind, and well-loved, you are The Peach.

         
    For such a warm-hearted, generous person, you’re  surprisingly
    experienced in both love and sex. We credit your  spontaneous
    side; you tend to live in the moment, and you don’t get  bogged
    down by inhibitions like most women your age. If you see 
    something wonderful, you confidently embrace it.


    Your exact opposite:
    The Nymph

    Deliberate Brutal Sex Dreamer

         
    You are a fun flirt and an instant sweetheart, but our  guess is
    you’re becoming more selective about long-term love. It’s  getting
    tougher for you to become permanently attached; and a guy who’s 
    in a different place emotionally might misunderstand your early 
    enthusiasm. You can wreck someone simply by enjoying him.

         Your ideal mate is adventurous and giving, like you. But not overly intense.

    DREAD: The False Messiah

    CONSIDER: The Loverboy, The Playboy, or The Boy Next Door

     


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    You are Dance.You prize grace, action and immediacy, but this
    does not mean you are impatient.  You are
    physical in your expression, although you tend
    to be (but are not always) abstract.  You get
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  • facts…
    reality…
    truth…
    words…
    shit.

    I still flounder about, trying to find the words to expand on the “Wake up!” injunction in my work-in-progress for KaiOaty,
    the FAQ on Lightworkers and Light Working.  I could say, “Pay
    attention.”  Or I could say, “Look within.”  If I say all of
    them, my treatise is now up to six words.  As I mentioned before,
    anyone who gets it from that, doesn’t need it in the first place.

    I found some excellent words in the works of Ramana Maharshi. 
    Unfortunately, most of the best of them are in Sanskrit.  Maharshi
    himself said that the terminology for his basic self-realization
    technique is difficult.  realization.org states it this way:

    The
    Sanskrit name for it, atma-vicara,
    really means self-investigation, self-examination, self-reflection,
    or looking within, but self-inquiry has become
    the standard translation. …this
    can be misleading.

    Yeah, no kidding.

    E.J. Gold talks of this technique in terms of a labyrinth.  We
    Workers, labyrinth voyagers, are seeking the Heart of the
    Labyrinth.  “Heart” figures prominently in Maharshi’s work,
    too.  But talk about “heart” to your average American girl (most
    wannabe Light Workers are young and female) and they think valentines
    and romance.  That’s not what E.J. and Maharshi had in mind.

    E.J., early on, encountered expressions of fear, particularly a fear
    that the seeker would become lost in the labyrinth.  He assures us
    that this is no problem, that as soon as the fear sets in our
    consciousness is back in its accustomed state of identification with
    the “sleep” of the biological machine.  He doesn’t mean the delta
    brainwave state of snooze.  He’s talking about walking sleep, the
    everyday “waking” state of the mass of humanity.

    I know just what he means.  My mind wanders.  I Work my way
    into the labyrinth from time to time, have a few lucid moments and
    then, like a rubber band my mind snaps back into something else besides
    transcendent awareness.  Even when my work is of a more mundane
    sort, such as the research I’ve been doing to find works to cite for
    this FAQ, I’m easily distractable.

    I was following links from Maharshi to a few others who have been
    influenced by him, such as Papaji, Ken Wilber and Paul Brunton. 
    In the 1990s, Wilber’s words about how we affect
    our own reality became one of my most useful resources when I was
    dealing with clients who had swallowed the YCYOR line in full and were
    wondering how the hell and why they had created their current
    realities.  In the 1960s, Brunton’s The Secret Path  led me to my first transcendence and first out-of-body experiences.

    See how easily I was distracted from my research by those memory
    triggers?  That’s not all.  The bio on Paul Brunton stopped
    me cold.  I looked at his dates of birth and death and saw that he
    died July 27, 1981, the day Doug was born.  When I realized how
    far my mind had wandered from the course I’d set myself this morning, I
    decided I might as well blog.

    So, here I am.  I see that in my first few paragraphs above I have
    achieved a little of the exposition I’ve been looking for.  Thank
    you, all of you, for giving me the sounding board.  It occurs to
    me that I might do better here by addressing my FAQ not to the wannabe Light Workers, but to a general audience about them.  That’s progress, I think.