Month: April 2005

  • Exploring the International Blogosphere

    Okay, I know, “international blogosphere” is a tautology, but it
    doesn’t hurt, especially in the U.S.of A., to remind people that not
    every blogger is tapping out the English language on those keys.

    The other day, my radio was on and tuned to public broadcasting, as it
    often has been since I was driven back to the radio two months ago when
    my computer and the PS2s all went down at once.  Before I moved in
    here on the public utility powergrid around the turn of the century and
    went online, public radio (an old car radio connected to a 12V battery
    that I sometimes had to drag on a sled to a neighbor’s house to charge)
    had been my connection to the outside
    world.  I’d listen as I did jewelry work or household tasks.

    Radio has TV beat for multi-tasking because one can lend an ear to it
    while doing any number of other things.  I remember, back in the
    1950s, when we’d recently gotten our TV, my mother complained that she
    had a tendency to scorch the ironing or let the soup boil over when the
    TV had grabbed her attention.  That doesn’t happen so often with
    radio.

    I was tapping away here at the keyboard when I heard that tautological
    phrase, “international blogosphere.”  The program, I think, had
    been The World.  I’m pretty sure, anyway, that it was one of the
    BBC programs our local NPR station rebroadcasts, but it could have been
    some other news show.  As I said, I was multi-tasking, not giving
    it my full attention.

    I caught the entire “blogosphere” spot later in the day when the rebroadcast came on.  They were talking about the globalvoices
    project at Harvard.  The speaker said they wanted to be sure that
    the blogosphere didn’t become parochial to the English speaking
    world.  I made a note to check it out later, and googled it today.

    The top item was about Isaac Mao,
    whose original site is being blocked because of an April Fools Day blog
    in which he made fun of the Great Firewall of China.  Here is the
    substance of that entry:

    The site of isaacmao.com has been blocked due to it’s ’sensitive’
    content. I don’t know how long it will take to return. I’m starting
    emgergency processes now, and will update information in this backup
    site. Thanks for your attention and kind queries.

    (Anyone
    ever linked to my site for the “sensitive” post about Great Firewall,
    please kindly trackback here to tell more people what happened)…

    Don’t worry, it’s not so sad thing, it’s fun enough~! No experience, no understanding.

    The “sensitive content” in question may have
    been Isaac’s very funny April Fools post, where he said that
    isaacmao.com had been blocked, and suggested people visit other,
    non-offensive websites, including net memes like “How to Fold A Shirt” – his post read, in part: “Isaac Mao was exiled to Siberia… what do you want to visit now?”

    Or, it may been the diagram – hosted on flickr – that Isaac linked to, with his speculations on how
    the Chinese firewall operates. (Flickr is becoming an increasingly
    useful tool to help our Chinese friends evade the firewall. In the
    event that Isaac’s flickr post is blocked, here’s a copy of the diagram hosted on our servers.)

    Isaac
    believes his blog is intact, but his ISP was ordered to stop resolving
    the isaacmao.com domain name. He’s now working to get the domain name
    to resolve to his backup blog. A number of people (Global Voices
    included) have offered Isaac hosting for his blog outside of China.
    Isaac’s planning on keeping it in China, seeing situations like this as
    an excellent chance to learn more about internet filtering in China:

    To
    my personal blog, I’m not so eager to move my blog to oversea’s
    hosting. It’s so good to study this space with more local experience.
    (from a recent email from Isaac.)

    One issue
    Isaac’s situation raises is the idea of “blogger adoption”. We may want
    to look into a system that allows bloggers in relatively free countries
    to “adopt” blogs in relatively unfree countries and keep backup copies
    of those sites. When a site is blocked, the adoptive blogger could post
    a mirror of the site based on the backup. If anyone is interested in
    trading ideas on how we might hack together such a system, please drop
    me a line at ethanz AT gmail DOT com.

    Any techies in my readership interested in contributing?


    Memory Lane

    Retrograde Mercury has been a helpful factor since I started writing my
    memoirs.  Most of the progress I’ve made in that area has happened
    when Merc was retro.  In recent weeks, I added a few episodes to
    the adolescence end of my dangling threads, and have been giving a lot
    of reflective thought to the other dangling end in the ‘seventies.

    But that’s not the only area of those memoirs that have been getting my attention.  Thanks to a new reader, craftygirl, I have been rereading, expanding and revising many of the entries I wrote almost three years ago.

    This
    leads me to a little aside about that fine Xanga feature, the Feedback
    Log.  I have been trying for years to point out to my Luddite Old
    Fart that little box at the left on his main page where his daily and
    weekly props, comments, guestbook entries and new subscribers are
    tabulated.  Recently, he told me with some chagrin that he
    possibly might have missed out on a lucrative knife sale because he
    hadn’t been checking his guestbook for months.  He doesn’t check
    his email either (and I check it for him only rarely), but that’s
    another story.




    Usually, when I present “new” ideas
    to him, particularly technological innovations such as copy-and-paste
    or “feedback logs”, his eyes glaze over and he tunes me out.  He’s
    sure that, since he got along for over half a century without such
    newfangled things, he can get along without them now.  This time,
    though, with the added stimulus of a financial connection, I think I
    successfully got his attention when I mentioned the feedback log.




    Do you pay attention to your feedback
    log?  If someone were to leave a comment on one of your past
    entries (assuming that you’re not one of those Xangans who deletes or
    makes private everything older than yesterday), would you know
    it?  I check my feedback log every day, because if I didn’t, I’d
    miss the comments that are left on my memoir entries.  Those
    comments help keep me motivated to go on writing the memoirs.




    Few people leave comments on those
    “old” entries.  I think that’s because they don’t expect me to
    read those comments, and not because those entries aren’t being
    read.  I get occasional emails, and gifts in the little purple
    hat, from both Xangans and non-members, that indicate people are
    following those links in my left module and reading the memoirs.




    I want to make it known that it is
    also okay to comment on those old entries.  When these things are
    compiled into a final manuscript for publication, whether by me or my
    heirs, there will be acknowledgement of the input and support my Xanga
    readers have provided.  I’ve promised a few autographed copies,
    too, to benefactors who’ve had enough confidence in me to assume that
    there would eventually be a book.

    craftygirl
    has been reading my life story.  I read her comments in my
    feedback log.  Some of them impelled me to go back and look at the
    entries on which she was commenting.  In some instances that led
    to corrections, additions and revisions.  This was a task I’d
    known I needed to do for a long time.  I appreciate being given
    the impetus to do it.  Most days, blogging the present is
    infinitely more attractive than revising the past.


    Brenda Starr is gone.

    For 43 years a comic book heroine, redheaded reporter Brenda Starr, inspired a
    couple of generations of women to
    break out of some “feminine” stereotypes, while perpetuating some other
    stereotypes.  Brenda’s creator, Dale Messick, died a few days ago
    at the age of 98.  If Janet and Dan hadn’t completely bollixed up
    the image upload system, I’d have pics for you of both Brenda and Dale.
     

  • How does it look now?

    If my front page was looking wonky to you earlier, and it’s okay now,
    tell me so I can congratulate myself on fixing it.  If this works,
    it was maggie_mcfrenzie who clued me to the problem.  I gotta
    watch that pre-wrap tag.  It has gotten me before, when I copied
    and pasted something. Homer clued me to that months ago.  Must remember to paste it into notepad to
    get rid of the formatting before I past into xTools.  That’s a
    little bit easier than editing the HTML here. 

    I’m really curious why my URL sometimes comes up with “beta” in
    there.  It might be unrelated to the wide-screen problem, but it’s
    a curiosity.

    BTW, for those of you who mentioned that my left module is wider than
    normal, I know.  I fixed it that way to keep it from being as long
    as it would be otherwise, what with my links to the memoirs and that
    humongous and ever-growing list of quotes.  You should see NO YOU
    SHOULDN’T see how long it is on my private front page with all my
    subs.  I’m a promiscuous subber. *blush*

    I took an unscheduled trip to town today.  There was a final
    notice in the mailbox today, some stuff waiting at the post office in
    Willow I needed to pick up before they sent it back (not your software
    Sarah, but Doug’s new game that had been there longer)  Since I
    was going that far, I went on into Wasilla to take Greyfox some of the
    beans I cooked last night.  Doug rode along so he could do most of
    the legwork.  Still, I wore myself out.

    Note to self:  stay out of meth labs… even if they’re not being used as labs any longer. 

    There’s a cabin at Felony Flats, right behind the new spot where
    Greyfox sets up his stand.  It’s vacant, and there were two
    broken-open bags of potting mix littering the ground in the gravel
    drive beside the porch.  After I scooped up the neato-keen topsoil
    stuff, bagged it and had Doug load it in our hatch, I got snoopy. 
    The door was open, and all the windows.  I stepped inside and
    noticed a light on in the next room.  Being the
    conservation-conscious numbskull I am, I crossed over to switch it
    off.  Greyfox stepped onto the porch behind me and said, “Don’t go
    in there.  That’s where the meth lab was.” 

    I sniffed deeply and said, “I don’t smell anything.”  Of course,
    most of the time I don’t smell anything.  That’s called
    anosmia.  When I got back outside, Doug said he could smell it
    from out there.

    By the time we were having our lunch, I was feeling funny — sorta
    shaky and half sick, weak muscles — the usual chemical sensitivity
    toxic reaction.

    I’m glad I’m home.  It was a quick turnaround trip, just in, do
    what needed to be done, briefly poison myself, and then back up the
    valley.  I never did get back under those covers this
    morning.  It’s about time, now, I think.

    OMG!  They’ve screwed up my image files.  They’re not in
    alphabetical order.  I couldn’t find my moniker in the drop menu
    and had to write the HTML.  That sucks so bad!  Xanga, why do
    you hate me?

    Little update, a few minutes later:
    Okay, Xanga doesn’t hate me.  That was actually an upgrade. 
    Now I can choose to have my pics listed alphabetically or
    chronologically.  Whew!  They’re back in alphabetical order
    now, but with one click I can make them chronological again to help me
    find things that are close to other things.  Cool!

  • How does my front page look to you?
    Two people have noticed something wonky about the script on my
    front page.  I don’t see it here, and have not made any changes
    except some additions to my left module.  What do you see? 
    Any suggestions?

    I had a heavy “fibro” day yesterday,
    spilling things, tripping and falling, more typos than usual.  I
    spent the entire day at the keyboard doing a tough job I’d agreed to,
    and when the day was over I felt poleaxed.

    The mess in here from all the recently acquired unsorted junk is making
    it harder than usual to move around.  I get a little bit of it
    sorted and put away now and then, but that process isn’t even keeping
    up with the usual entropy.  A growing mess and diminishing
    capacity to deal with it add up to gloomy feelings.

    Add to that a balky fire in the woodstove and a chilly morning, and you
    get this clear picture of me going back and crawling under the covers.

    UPDATE:
    Now it is four people seeing things extending waaay out to the right,
    text not wrapping.  I still don’t see anything like that.  On
    my screen it looks just as it usually does.  So, techies, how can
    that be?  What can I do?

  • One Thing and Another

    The first thing today is relief, a burden released.

    Some time ago, I mentioned an ethical dilemma of Byzantine complexity
    and Stygian mystery.  I didn’t and still do not want to be
    specific enough about it to embarrass or imperil anyone, but it was
    too important to me not to put it in my journal and when I started this
    journal I made a promise to myself that I wasn’t going to keep any
    secrets.  We are only as sick as our secrets and my primary
    objective for this journal was healing.

    When I wrote that first entry about the dilemma, I was wishing I’d
    given the matter more thought and declined the request at the
    start.  I was trying to find a simple way to back out of a
    commitment that, upon reflection, did not feel right.  I got lots
    of advice from readers.  People suggested every possible option
    I’d thought of and a few that hadn’t occurred to me.  I gave all
    that advice due consideration and came up with a course of action that
    felt right.

    Since the client’s end hadn’t been fulfilled as agreed, I felt
    justified in renegotiating the contract.  I declined that part of
    the original request that didn’t feel right to me, and offered
    something else that I felt would better serve the client’s needs. 
    Today, I fulfilled my end of that modified agreement.  The best
    thing I can find to say about this whole affair is that it was a
    learning experience.  I won’t be making any regular business out
    of this.

    From about day two of this affair, I’ve seen a little sign flashing
    behind my eyes:  THIS IS A TEST.  When I completed my final
    email installment today, that sign blinked off and was replaced by a
    gentle, fading message:  never again.


    the other –

    Yesterday I was asked by spinksy
    for book recommendations, presumably of the sort of detective fiction
    and true crime I had mentioned in that blog.  Months ago, soul_survivor
    asked for a different type of recommended reading.  I’m responding
    to the later request before fulfilling the earlier one for a very
    simple reason.  It’s easier.  Compiling a list of my most
    valued scientific, spiritual and metaphysical books is a task so
    monumental I’ve shied away from it.  I mean, who remembers, and
    where would I find room for such a list?  I could probably drag my
    heels on that job for the rest of this lifetime.  Comparatively,
    listing some of my favorite fiction writers and fictitious characters
    is a breeze.

    My favorite books are ones that tell stories about “people” I know and
    care about:  long-running (or not so long) series that involve
    well-drawn characters.  Below are some of the authors and
    characters that I like best.

    James Lee Burke’s sheriff’s investigator from New Iberia, Louisiana, Dave “Streak” Robichaux

    Lawrence Block’s unlicensed detective who does “favors for friends” and
    accepts “gifts” for his efforts, Matt Scudder, who sorta reminds me of
    an old fave, John D. MacDonald’s Travis McGee

    David Wiltse’s serial killer who specializes in killing serial killers, FBI agent John Becker

    Patricia Cornwell’s medical examiner Kay Scarpetta (in the earlier books before she retired and jumped the shark)

    Jeffery Deaver’s quadriplegic criminalist Lincoln Rhyme and his
    “legman” Amelia Sachs, who are reminiscent of one of my earliest
    favorite detective duos, Rex Stout’s obese and reclusive horticulturist
    Nero Wolfe and his legman Archie Goodwin

    Michael Connelly’s former Hollywood homicide detective, now retired into private practice, Heironymous “Harry” Bosch

    J. A. Jance’s rural Arizona sheriff Joanna Brady

    Ridley Pearson’s Seattle detective Lou Boldt and forensic pathologist
    Daphne Matthews (Pearson has also collaborated with Dave Barry on a
    prequel to Peter Pan that I’m looking forward to reading.)

    John Lescroart’s lawyer/investigator/bartender Dismas Hardy

    Carl Hiaasen’s swamp-rat former Florida governor Skink

    Kathy Reich’s forensic anthropologist Dr.Temperance Brennan

    David Hunt’s achromatopsic photographer Kay Farrow

    Robert B. Parker’s mononymical Boston private eye Spenser and his big buddy Hawk

  • Oh, shit!

    I forgot something.


    (updated)
    This ‘n’ That

    When I broke a few days’ silence here with my latest blog, I got
    comment and email indicating that some of you had noticed my
    absence.  I hadn’t expected that.  Many of the Xangans I read
    don’t post more than two or three times a week, so I thought I would
    cause more comment by posting two or three times a day than by taking
    two or three days off.  See how wrong I can be.

    Apparently, some of you have come to expect more of me, and when you get less you start to wonder.   In her comment wixer
    took a few guesses at why I hadn’t been posting.  One of her
    guesses, “feeding the new addiction,” came very close to the
    truth.  It is an old addiction that has recently been
    revived.  During the month that my computer was down and our PS2s
    were not working, I started passing my time reading books.  That’s the way I passed most of my youth and my prison time.

    On Thursday, I spent the hour that Greyfox was on a computer in the
    Wasilla Public Library selecting books from their paperback
    racks.  I brought home 23 books, mostly detective fiction from
    authors I favor for their realistic portrayals of criminals,
    criminalists and detectives, with a sprinkling of good true
    crime.  By “good” in this context, I mean not emotional and
    sensationalistic reports from writers such as Ann Rule, but the
    first-person accounts of investigators and profilers such as John
    Douglas and Gregg McCrary.

    I chose to take books only from the paperback racks
    for two reasons:  small, lightweight books are easier to handle in
    bed.  I’ve fallen asleep many times while reading.  If I’m going to
    drop a book on myself, I’d prefer it be a paperback.  It’s less likely
    to awaken me or injure me.  Also, the library sets no due date on those
    books.  They just count how many go out and come in and don’t care how
    long I keep them.  This works very well for those of us who live in the
    upper reaches of this valley and don’t get to town regularly.

    Here’s a quotation from The Unknown Darkness:  Profiling the Predators Among Us by Gregg O. McCrary and Katherine Ramsland, PhD.:

    Well-meaning legislators have drafted
    sexually violent predator laws, but some are flawed.  The goal of
    these laws is to allow society to protect itself by keeping dangerous
    repeat offenders off the street, even after they have served their
    criminal sentence.  In many states these laws typically specify
    that it must be shown that a given offender poses a continuing threat
    to society, which is, of course, reasonable.  The flaw arises when
    it is also required that the offender be able to benefit from
    therapy.  The problem is that psychopaths don’t benefit from
    therapy.  In fact, such programs may actually make them worse.

    …The law creates a dilemma for those mental health professionals who
    must decide whom to release.  If the prerequisite for continued
    incarceration is treatability, they’re excluding the most dangerous
    population.  At a workshop I conducted at Atascadero State
    Hospital in California on detecting psychopathology at crime scenes,
    this irony was brought home.  I did a few interviews with people
    who were going through therapy there, and one was a psychopathic killer
    whom the authorities were ready to release.  They told me that the
    law required that they could hold the guy only if he had a treatable
    disorder, so since his psychopathy was untreatable, he’d be sent back
    into the community.  To sum it up, one doctor looked over the top
    of his glasses, raised an eyebrow, and said, “We only release the
    really dangerous ones.”

    I find such reading fascinating because I’ve worked in the mental
    health field and I have lived (in prison) with psychopaths.  I’ve
    also had close associations with some of those “therapeutic
    communities” that tend to make some forms of psychopathology
    worse.  My recent study of orthomolecular medicine now makes me
    wonder how some of those otherwise untreatable cases might respond to
    targeted nutrition.  It’s questions like this that are so
    intriguing to me.  One of my major payoffs in reading these books
    is that sometimes one of them will suggest a web search, and I then go
    off on a branching mind-trip in which I learn things.  Learning
    things — that’s another addiction of mine.


    Reading isn’t the only thing that has occupied my time and kept me from
    blogging.  That latest blog all about the firewood situation had
    been done (in a somewhat different version) days before I finally got
    it posted.  I completed it, clicked “submit”, and my browser
    crashed.  The crash apparently occurred before the post could be
    automatically copied to my clipboard.  It was lost.  I was
    frustrated.  I wasn’t ready to go back and do it all over again,
    and yet I didn’t want to go ahead and start something new until I did
    that.  And that, my dear readers, is a prescription for what I
    call “Xanga avoidance.”

    I never have any difficulty finding things to do while I’m avoiding
    Xanga.  This time, I had plenty to do — things that actually
    justified (some might even say necessitated) my giving some time to
    more concrete tasks.  My house is filling up with junk scrounge
    salvage.  As recently as yesterday, Greyfox told me he was still
    getting things out of the “windfall” pile beside the cabin next to
    his.  Even though other denizens of Felony Flats have discovered
    the pile and begun scrounging it, there are still things to discover
    there as the ice and snow melt away.  I had spotted a Hoover
    vacuum cleaner encased in ice in a shady spot.  Greyfox is keeping
    an eye on it, and I hope that when it emerges sufficiently to be
    grabbed, he’ll be the first one to grab it.

    Greyfox now has a second small under-counter-style refrigerator to
    supplement the little one furnished with his cabin.  He put it on
    his porch and plugged it into the outlet where he plugs in his engine
    block heater.  We have brought home three loads of other stuff in
    our cars.  They included small kitchen appliances and electronic
    gear, tools and hardware, clothing and linens, toys and art. 
    Fortunately, I also found some storage units to help me organize
    it.  

    One set of three items (probably part of a larger set) was what I
    consider a great find.  It would have been greater to have found
    it sooner, before the weather ruined it.  They are old (how old, I
    don’t know) Japanese (I think) or Chinese shadow box collage
    pictures.  The frames are warped, paint peeled, veneer flaking off
    the backing, and they have mold growing inside the glass.  I think
    they are beyond restoration, so I’m taking them apart to salvage and
    reuse some components.  These three appear to be part of a
    four-seasons set.  They include a picture of bamboo and deer, one
    of chrysanthemums and dragonflies and another of buttterflies with
    flowers that might be some sort of allium.  Those flowers are
    carved from pink coral.  The chrysanthemums are white jade, the
    chrysanthemum stems are jet and all the leaves are green jade, nephrite
    in the case of the chrysanthemums and jadeite in the others.  The
    butterflies and dragonflies are mother of pearl.  There are other
    gemstone components, too.  Each picture has a group of Japanese (I
    think) characters carved from ivory. 

    They will be useful for a project I’ve been planning:  boxes
    decorated with gemstones.  I got the idea for the boxes from a
    collection of broken beads, rings and such that I’ve been accumulating
    from my jewelry work.  I’d been hoping to collect some old cigar
    boxes or something to use for the project, but the windfall pile has
    provided a few little boxes specifically made for such crafts
    purposes.  One of them is now in my possession and Greyfox is
    watching for the rest of them to thaw out of the block of ice they’re
    now encased in.”

    An extensive collection of bakeware and cake-decorating equipment gave
    me pause.  For an insane moment, I saw it as a sign from above
    that I’m supposed to start a catering business.  Naaah — that
    “signs from above” shit:  it’s what psychologists call “ideas of
    reference.”  They’re symptoms, not signs.  But I’ve kept the
    bakeware, anyway.  Ya never know — this damned disease could go
    into remission and it might come in handy.

    There was a big basket full of incense that had been submerged in
    snow-melt.  I have some of it spread out here to dry.  It
    takes up every available horizontal surface and the fragrance of my
    domicile changes from day to day as one batch dries and gets bagged up
    and a new one gets spread out to dry.

    Having that big windfall pile didn’t eliminate or even diminish the
    usual flow of scrounge at Felony Flats.  Among other goodies,
    Greyfox discovered two frozen turkeys in the dumpster. 
    What!?!  Did I hear a faint, distant sound of retching? 
    Maybe it’s about time for me to leave off the trailing end of my
    adolescent memoirs and take up the thread where I left it off in the
    ‘seventies, during the economic bust that followed the pipeline boom,
    when Charley and I not only survived, but thrived and fattened on what
    we found in dumpsters.  Maybe, later….

    I brought those turkeys home Thursday night along with the groceries
    I’d bought.  One went in the freezer and the other into the bottom
    of my fridge to thaw.   Today, I intend to take some ephedra
    so my sense of smell will work.  Then I’ll get the turkey out of
    the fridge, and if it smells okay I’ll stuff it with onions, celery and
    sage, and roast it in my oven.  I truly hope it is good.  I
    like turkey, and haven’t had any for a while. 

    I guess I fed Doug too much turkey as he was growing up.  He
    doesn’t like it, and won’t eat it now except occasionally when I make
    it into enchiladas or something that disguises it.  Since Greyfox
    doesn’t live here any more, I’ve not been able to justify to myself
    buying a whole turkey just for me.  But I’ll cook that dumpster
    bird if it smells okay, and I’ll take some of the meat to Greyfox next
    time I go to town, as I’ve done with the moose we butchered in the
    front yard, and some stews and beans and such that I’ve cooked up
    here.  Otherwise, the Old Fart generally subsists on lunchmeat
    sandwiches, canned soup and frozen dinners.  He has essentially no
    food prep area, and only a microwave for cooking.  If I were in
    that situation… I wouldn’t be in that situation.  I’d be out in
    the yard cooking over a campfire or something.


    I found another quotation to add to my list of favorites:

    “Almost all our faults are more pardonable than the methods we think up to hide them.”

    Francois de la Rochefoucauld

    ADDENDUM:

    I had intended to post this, then forgot it when I got off on those trips about the books and the scroungepile.

    This was in my email inbox today, from “xanga@xanga.com” indicating someone used my email link here”>allipilotfish@yahoo.com

    i was makeing something in my backyard
    yesterday,and the morning when me and my sister,went back into the
    backyard,and to the place we put some wild berries,and a bed made of
    grass.we made it as something to do but when we came back the berrie’s
    were eaten,and the beds were messted up as if some oen had slept in
    them!and then we saw a notte with some kind of writeing on them,little
    marks,onr was three lines,with one though the middle of it!and then i
    glased something moveing,it moved very fast i jumped.and i started
    singing thinking it might stay and it did.i got a better lok at it,it
    was furry,little no biger then my finger,and it had pointed ears!do you
    think that there really is this kind of creatuer in my backyard,or was
    it just me?my sister din’t see the creatuer and said it was the wind or
    something!what do you think?i’m also trying to find out more about this
    kind of thing if you know any thing about little creatuer that live in
    peopel’s backyards maybe you could tell me some!

    “…furry,little no biger then my finger,and it had pointed ears,”
    could describe a small rodent or mammal, but one of them wouldn’t be
    likely to leave any “nottes”.

    I gave the name, “Elvenhurst”, to my home in this valley, where I lived
    for fifteen years.  The name was chosen because a hurst is a sandy
    hill, rise or eminence, and the dominant feature of the land over there
    is a small sandy rise covered with trees.  The place had been used
    as a gravel pit and except for that small area all the topsoil and
    vegetation had been scraped off, so that most of the lot is a level
    gravel surface, except for the hurst. 

    The “elven” part came about because while I was putting in gardens
    there, I kept seeing things out of the corners of my eyes that vanished
    when I looked straight at them.  I don’t believe in fairies,
    elves, and such, nor do I believe in the non-existence of the wee folk.

    I know many things about, “little creatuer that live in peopel’s
    backyards.”  I’ve learned those things from mythology, folklore
    and fairy tales.  The “little people” I know from firsthand
    experience, the faerie folk with whom I’ve communicated, are
    incorporeal.  By that, I mean I don’t see them with my eyes, can’t
    touch them, but I can talk to them and they “answer” me in my
    mind.  Some people say that means I’m nuts.

    If I am crazy for seeing and hearing such things that others don’t, I’d
    rather be crazy than deaf and blind to such things.   But
    that doesn’t answer that question, does it?

    My best answer to such a question would be that the wee folk wasn’t the
    source of the “notte,” but I’m only guessing.  Next time, get a
    picture of the little creature and the message.

  • The Firewood Saga Continues

    If you’ve been following the story of our attempts to stay warm this
    winter, you may recall that Jason, our young neighbor who had supplied
    our firewood for several years, killed himself last year.  It was
    coincidentally near the time that we were ready to start stocking wood
    for the winter.

    Jason had had an argument with his wife one night.  He went to the
    lodge and got drunk.  The next morning, she found him hanging in
    their barn.  We learned of it that same morning, when Greyfox
    called and asked for Jason, to order a load of fuel.

    It rocked the neighborhood.  For weeks, every conversation among
    neighbors at the spring or the general store involved Jason and
    Selena.  We’d share what information we had, express concern for
    Selena, and wonder what she and the kids were going to do.  Then
    someone would ask, “Do you know anyone around here who’s selling
    firewood now?”

    Jason’s suicide left a big gap in the immediate area.  Its impact
    was emotional because everyone knew him.  It hit many of us close
    to home in another way because our households depended on him for
    winter warmth.  I tried calling every ad in the local papers, on
    flyers hanging on bulletin boards, and in the yellow pages.  Those
    who weren’t out of wood already were either unwilling to deliver this
    far up the valley or to go to the extra trouble of cutting it in the
    short lengths we need.

    Finally,
    around the end of September, after the first few snowfalls had come to
    signal winter and then melted in the sun, I found George.  On his
    first trip here, I snapped his pic and reported to you about his
    apparent NPD (narcissistic personality disorder).  A few days after that, I told the final chapter of
    that story.  He had tried to cheat me, selling me six tenths of a
    cord and calling it a full cord.  Then one night in a drunken
    phone conversation, he had told me that his truck only held 3/10 of a
    cord.

    When he came back to sell me another three-tenths for sixty dollars,
    I’d confronted him.  Rather than revise his measurements or
    renegotiate the price ( I was less disturbed over the expense than I
    was over the dishonesty), he opted not to do business with me.  He
    allowed Doug to unload most of that load before he left, yelling out a
    veiled threat as his parting shot.

    That scant nine-tenths of a cord lasted us into December.  Through
    October and November I had been calling every number of every ad for
    firewood I found and all the ones that Greyfox saw on bulletin boards
    in town.  Finally, in desperation, I went back and called all the
    ones who hadn’t returned my calls, telling everyone I was out of wood,
    implying desperation.

    I also called someone I’d dealt with once before and chosen not to deal
    with again.  This guy, Mark, runs patronizing ads that say
    “firewood even your wife can burn.”  In this household, I’m the
    one who gets the fire going when the wood is wet, or restarts it when
    one of the guys lets it go out, and I don’t have a wife.  I hadn’t
    liked Mark’s ad, I didn’t like his attitude when he delivered the wood
    that first time, before Jason had moved in and started selling wood,
    and I didn’t like the fact that he delivered me a short cord, much of
    which was cut in longer lengths than he’d agreed to.
     
    I held my nose and ordered a cord of wood from Mark.  I wrote
    about the runaround he gave me, the delays because I told him I didn’t
    want the cord of mixed birch, spruce and aspen he was apparently
    picking up from someone who’d previously bought it from him, and his
    novel method of emptying his truck by backing it up and slamming it
    into the woodpile.  After keeping me waiting a couple of days
    while he said he was cutting a load of the birch I wanted, he came late
    at night and delivered the mix of birch, spruce and poplar.

    Among the callbacks I got later on that desperate day of calling around
    was one from a guy named Lou.  He had a big truck and promised me
    a cord and a third of birch for $130.  Kinda high price, but I was
    asking for short lengths and a long ride to deliver it, so I accepted
    even though it wasn’t seasoned wood.  I figured I needed more than
    one cord to get us through the winter.  Even though those two
    deliveries had originally been scheduled days apart, they ended up
    being delivered all the same night.  Lou, at the last minute,
    decided to charge me an extra $20 delivery charge.  That story is here.

    I have mentioned here a few times lately that we were running out of
    wood again.  Doug and I kept the fire low and used the inefficient
    little electric heaters for several weeks as I tried to find
    fuel.  I tried Lou, and he was out of wood.  Mark’s ad was no
    longer in the newspaper, or I might have held my nose and tried him
    again.  I don’t know.  That’s a decision I’m glad I didn’t
    have to make.  We prepared ourselves to make it through until warm
    weather by dressing in some extra layers and running up the light bill.

    Greyfox found several new numbers on bulletin boards in town.  One
    of the ones I called was a cell number that put me in an electonic loop
    before telling me it wasn’t a valid number.  When Greyfox called
    that number one day, just to find out if it was defunct so he could
    remove the flyer and make room for one of his own, he got through and
    gave Tim my number.  Then he called me and gave me Tim’s number.


    After a couple of rounds of phone tag, Tim and I talked to each other
    and he agreed to bring me a cord of mostly birch, cut to my 11-inch
    lengths, for $120.00.  Meanwhile, Doug had been shoveling the deep
    snow away from around the edges of the woodpile.  He found some
    strays that had rolled off the pile, and hit one significant vein that
    kept the fire going at a low level.  We were managing to keep the
    stove from becoming a big cast-iron heat sink, the coldest object in
    the room, but just barely.

    The day Tim had promised his first delivery passed with no word from
    him.  The next day, I called him — phone tag again.  I left
    a message on his voicemail.  When he called me back, he apologized
    and said he had forgotten all about me.  I had already felt good
    about Tim, but when he told me that it only confirmed my feeling that I
    could trust him.  I hate being lied to, and I was dead certain
    that Tim was telling me the unvarnished truth.

    He still didn’t get here with the wood when he said he would. 
    Late at night the day he had promised the delivery, he called. 
    Doug caught the CallWave message:  Tim’s nephew had rolled his
    truck.


    When Tim called the next day, I took the call.  He said his nephew
    was okay but the truck wasn’t.  He had a friend with a truck he
    could use.  I got the first delivery that night.  It was
    mostly birch as we’d agreed.  It was well-aged as he had
    said.  It was obviously more than I’d gotten in the two loads that
    George had called a cord, but Tim was quick to tell me it wasn’t a full
    cord.

    I told Tim that night that I’d had a good feeling about him when he
    told me he’d forgotten me.  He said his girlfriend had overheard
    his end of that conversation.  “Why do you tell people things like
    that?” she had asked.  “It’s true,” he had answered her.  I
    said that was a good enough reason for me.

    He had said that the first cord for each customer was $120, but he’d
    sell subsequent cords for “regular” customers for $100.  I had
    agreed to buy 2 cords this spring, even though I’m pretty sure one will
    get us through the rest of this year’s cold weather.  As Tim, his
    helper, and Doug unloaded the wood, we talked about payment.  I
    told him I had the $120 in cash, and asked him if he’d be willing to
    take my check for the second cord, or if I’d need to go to an ATM to
    withdraw more cash.

    I was surprised when he agreed to take my check.  Woodsellers
    around here don’t take credit cards.  That idea, to most, is
    absurd.  None of the ones I’ve ever dealt with would take checks,
    either.  They’re just like dope dealers that way.  It is a
    cash business, usually, and they don’t give receipts.  

    I asked Tim if he’d be selling firewood next fall.  He told us he
    would be back in October to start selling wood again.  I got the
    feeling that he’d prefer selling us next winter’s wood this
    spring.  I wasn’t sure where I’d get the money, but I knew that I
    could get a cash advance on a credit card if I had to, so I told Tim to
    bring me five cords.

    We’ve gotten to know each other better than I’ve gotten to know any of
    my previous firewood dealers.  That night, he handed Doug a little
    slip of paper on which he had written, “Chirikof Island.”  He said
    “they” had made a webpage about him, and I could search it out.  I
    did that the next day.  I found the site devoted to the Alaska
    Maritime National Wildlife Refuge, and several other web references to
    Tim.

    Some of the people who write about Tim call him a “maverick.”  For
    those who didn’t grow up on cowboy movies the way I did, I’ll define
    that word.  Originally, it was a calf on the open range without a
    brand.  When it became applied to men, it referred to one who
    followed his own rules and belonged to nobody but himself.  It
    wasn’t necessarily an insult, unless one happened to be the
    conservative sort who believed in conventional laws and social
    order.  Most mavericks were decent people, something like what is
    known in RPG terms as “chaotic good.”

    By the time I’d finished reading all I could find about Tim, I
    understood why I’d had such a good feeling about him just from his
    voice, before we’d ever met.  We see eye to eye on a lot of
    issues.  This turned out to be a good thing for both of us. 
    We had made our first contact about the time Mercury went retrograde,
    and our whole association thus far could be summarized in two
    words:  retrograde Mercury.

    He has had telephone problems, and so have we.  He’s had
    persistent mechanical problems as well as heavy snowfall and some
    inconvenient thawing of the ground around the lake where he’s getting the wood.  He
    has delivered about half of my wood, and I’ve paid him for the entire
    order so that he could get the parts he needs to fix his truck so he
    can deliver the rest.  Very soon, after the thaw, the area where
    he cuts the wood will be inaccessible.  He’s working against time,
    and I’m happy to help as much as I can because there’s an advantage in
    here for me, too, besides the pleasure of dealing with someone I like
    and respect.


    I’m not going to write out all the details here of Tim’s venture on
    Chirikof Island.  I’ll just give you some of the things Tim told
    me that are not on the web, and you can Google Tim Jacobson and
    Chirikof Island if you want more details.  Tim is on the left in this shot.  The cowboy on the right is named Loni.

    There is a herd of feral cattle on the island.  It has been there
    since the late 1800s.  It is probably the healthiest cattle herd
    in the world.  It has never been subjected to growth hormones,
    never been exposed to BSE.  Tim has a contract with the feds to
    remove the cattle from the island, something many people have tried
    unsuccessfully to do.

    The reason for their removal is the mission of the U.S. Fish and
    Wildlife Service, protection of the nesting grounds of the shorebirds
    on the islands in the refuge.  It is a controversial mission there
    on Chirikof Island.  Many people would prefer to have the cattle,
    who have been there for more than a century–most of it without human caretakers–stay.

    Tim’s success thus far has been small, and his effort and expense quite
    large.  He told us he spent tens of thousands on legal fees to defend
    against an effort our governor made to lay claim to the herd (and the
    island, I think).  Tim won.  He now has an extension of his
    original contract and five more years to fulfill it.

    Meanwhile, as he spends his summers rounding up cattle out there, he’s
    working to get the regulations changed so that the herd can continue in
    peace.  He is also doing what he can to improve the herd. 
    Without human intervention, it has become about 60% bulls.  Life
    is hard for cows with so many bulls around.  Tim said the only
    significant hazards out there are some boggy areas where they can get
    stuck, and the brutality of the bulls.

    Tim is “banding” young bulls, using castration bands to turn them into
    steers.  Steers produce better meat and are less aggressive. 
    The meat on these cattle is very lean.  Tim describes it as more
    like elk than beef.  I haven’t tasted it yet, but he has promised
    to bring us a sample.  He has some for sale.  I don’t know
    how much he has, or his price, but if anyone is interested I will find
    out for you.


    When the state administration was making its grab for the island, they
    made a “documentary” in which the voiceover talked about how wild,
    intractible and uncontrollable the herd is.  The problem with that
    was that while the narrator was reading that script, the video was
    showing the cows standing around inside the fences Tim and his crew had
    built, with the island cowboys walking amongst them.

    There’s a story behind those fences, too.  Tim found the wreck of
    a barge on one of the island’s beaches.  Digging down through
    about 8 feet of silt and sand, he found lumber and barbed wire that had
    been preserved there for decades.

    I’ve been invited to the island for a visit this summer, to stay at
    the new ranch headquarters pictured below.  It might not be
    feasible, but it certainly is tempting.

    (Chirikof Island photos from AMNWR)