Month: November 2002

  • Whatta Beeeyoooteeful Morning!

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    sun has now risen above the clouds and it’s just another gray
    day.  But a few minutes ago, when the sun was between the horizon
    and the clouds, I ran out into the frosty beauty in long
    johns and slippers and caught the sunrise.

    I’m sharing the best two shots with you here.  Does it make
    them any more valuable if you know that my slippers have holes in the
    bottom?  Not only did I get some burningly cold stones in my
    shoes, but I lost my footing as I balanced on a fallen birch to get the
    above shot of muskeg.  One foot slipped to the icy surface, broke
    through, and convinced me it was time to squish back to the
    house.  I’ve said it before:  *tsk* The sacrifices I make for
    my art!  I captured the view below as I was limping back across
    the road.

    I just got around to reading Greyfox‘s
    latest blog, about his true love.  Because I have his password and
    could do it as he slept (insert demented chuckle here), I’ve added a
    couple of candid pics I took of her when he wasn’t looking. 
    *chortle*

  • My First Alaskan Winter


    I knew that the winter gear I had brought from Colorado wasn’t adequate for Alaska.  It hadn’t been adequate for the high Rockies.  At Salvation Army I found a U.S.Army parka, OD green with plush lined hood, the texture of teddy bear fur.  I loved turning my head around in the hood and feeling the caress of the plush on my cheek.  I bought a pair of black knee-high boots, man-made materials, 2″ heels, with plush lining.  My toes never felt anything that good.  I didn’t want to wear socks, the plush was so soft.  I could wiggle my toes down into it.  With parka and boots, and doeskin gloves lined with rabbit fur, I felt ready for the Alaskan winter.


    The clothes I’d worn on the road had been good enough for Open Door Klinic, but I needed better rags to work in the parole office.  Mike made that clear when he interviewed me.  The other secretaries wore mini-skirts and pantsuits.  Vicki, the female parole officer, wore similar styles, in more conservative colors and combos.  I picked up, from Penney’s, Northern Commercial, and Salvation Army, a piece at a time as I could, a sexily conservative wardrobe.


    One day, there was a sharp nip in the air, the temp just below freezing, around 25°F, as I walked home from work after dark.  It had been trippy, watching the daylength diminish so fast, day by day.  The sunsets over Cook Inlet and Mount Susitna (Sleeping Lady), that I saw from those third-floor windows in the parole department typing pool, were fantastic.  I was comfortable in parka, boots and gloves, and dawdled through the business district, window shopping on my way home.  It was cloudy, and had snowed earlier in the day.  Everything was sparkling and beautiful as I crossed the Park Strip, an east/west slice of the Anchorage bowl that had once been the town’s airstrip.


    That night as I slept, the clouds moved out as a high pressure system moved in, and the temperature dropped to about ten degrees below zero Fahrenheit.  I didn’t notice, never looked at a thermometer.  Walking to work the next morning, still in the dark, I could feel the cold biting my cheeks and stinging my nostrils.  My bottom was cold in my mini skirt and panty hose, even with the army parka over it.  I was wishing I’d worn pants before I was halfway there.  By the time I got to the office, my knees were numb and white from cold.  Then they turned red and burned like fire, along with the fronts of both thighs.  They were “frosted”, the Alaskanese term for not-quite-frostbite.


    Frostbitten flesh, according to the local lore, wouldn’t have just peeled like a sunburn the way my knees did; it would have turned black and rotted away.  The people who saw me that day reassured me that I’d been lucky not to get frostbitten, but I was uncomfortable enough not to fully appreciate the difference.  When I bent my knees, I felt like screaming, but made do with a few whimpers.  I rode home that night in a cab, and couldn’t rip those panty hose off my burning legs fast enough once I was inside my snug little basement lair.  I bought myself a few pairs of tights to wear under pants, and a warm bodysuit to wear under skirts, bought two midis, and put the minis away for spring.


    I heard about my cheechako blunder (a cheechako is a newcomer, a tenderfoot, greenhorn, a babe in the woods) from everyone who knew me.  They asked me, “Don’t you have a THERMOMETER at your place?”  Actually, there was one hanging in a tree in my landlady’s yard, right outside her kitchen window.  I passed it coming and going to my place, in the side door and down the stairs.  Not ever in my life until that day had the temperature been more than a matter of curiosity, unless it was over 100F.  In my experience, cool was COOL, y’know?  Cool’s still cool, kiddies, but cold is something else.


    Every winter, just about the time that the Earth tilts back over enough so you can actually feel the warmth on your face at midday, when the sun becomes more than just a source of light and hope, Fur Rendezvous comes to Anchorage.  My first Rondy came like the Cavalry, right in the nick of time for me.  If Rondy and Steve hadn’t come to my rescue, my first case of cabin fever could have gone critical.


    Rondy got me out of the house.  I rode carnival rides.  I went to the gem and mineral show, the crafts competitions and trade shows.  I watched the World Championship Sled Dog Race and the Rondy Grand Prix.  I learned that it is a sled DOG race not a dog SLED race.  And I learned, to my lasting delight, that huskies love to run.  Except for work, I had been hibernating, curled in my den, in my warm jammies, in a big fringed shawl, under an afghan, wrapped in a blanket, bleak and depressed.  Work was getting to me, what with a lot of spinning of wheels trying to help the helpless and motivate the hopeless, and advocate for them among the more functional parts of society.


    We talked about these feelings a lot at Open Door staff meetings, and over coffee with Mike and our volunteers at New Start.  They told me these feelings had a name, a nice jargony label:  social service burnout.  Steve told me about a new therapy group, called Family Rap, a community outreach service for high-stress professions by the graduates and staff of Family House residential heroin rehab center.  Family Rap turned my life around.  Or… Rap came into my life at the time my life was turning around and contributed its own twist to the spin, or something like that.  Now life REALLY starts getting interesting.


    To be continued….


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  • 1. Were you raised in a particular religious faith?


    My mother told me to put “protestant” in the blank when a form asked my religion.  Sometimes she took me to church on Easter to show off my new dress.  My father was not inside a church during the years of my lifetime.  He taught me a direct Gnostic spiritual faith that required no mortal intercessors, nor books of rules.


    2. Do you still practice that faith? Why or why not?


    Yes, my father’s faith, that is, but with my own personal spin.  After studying many religions and converting to quite a few in succession, I came back to direct communion with the Divine Spirit.


    3. What do you think happens after death?


    I don’t know.  I know I have died and been reborn many times, this soul into a succession of bodies.  I remember many deaths, many lives beyond them.  That doesn’t mean it will be the same next time.


    4. What is your favorite religious ritual (participating in or just observing)?


    Winter Solstice Feast


    5. Do you believe people are basically good?


    I’m trying to transcend beliefs.  I have come a long way in that pursuit, far enough not to be making moralistic judgments about good and evil.  I know that if a child is born into a loving and enlightened family, and manages to make it to adulthood without suffering abuse, that person is very unlikely to be abusive.  People are basically malleable and can be taught to be peaceful and cooperative or violent and obstructive.

  • My favorite holiday cookie:
    Jelly Tarts (Nutty Thumbprints)


    Blend until of creamy consistency:



    1/2 cup softened unsalted butter
    1/3 cup granulated white sugar


    Add, beating after each addition:



    1 whole large egg OR two egg yolks
    1/2 tsp pure vanilla extract
    1/4 tsp. grated lemon rind
    1 cup sifted all purpose white flour
    1/8 tsp. salt
    2 Tbsp. poppy seed (optional)


    Chill dough: (refrigerate a few hours to overnight)


    Roll into 1″ balls


    Dip in:



    slightly beaten egg white


    Roll in:



    chopped pecans or filberts (hazelnuts)


    Bake at 375 for 5 minutes


    Remove from oven, make thumbprints, fill with:



    fruit jelly


    and return to oven to bake for about 8 minutes more.


    Enjoy! (They’re not on my diet, so enjoy some for me, too.)

  • “The Beanery” Meatless Tamale Pie
    good and spicy, cheap and healthy


    Heat a large cast iron (or heavy non-stick) pot or dutch oven, and


    Add and heat to sizzling hot, but not smoking:



     1 cup vegetable oil (preferably a light-flavored olive oil)



    Saute:



    1/2 cup minced onion
     2 tsp. chili powder
     1-2 tsp. cayenne, to taste
     1 cup soy grits
     2 cups bulgar wheat or cracked triticale
     2 Tbsp. red miso (mash into grains with back of wooden spoon to blend) 


    Stir over medium-high heat until well blended and heated through, then


    Add all at once:



     4 cups water and stir in, then


    Add:



     1 15oz can tomato sauce
     2 cans pitted ripe olives, including liquid


    Continue stirring over medium-high heat until it begins to simmer, then cover, reduce heat and cook, stirring occasionally, until thickened, about 20-30 minutes, possibly less, probably no more unless you are at a high altitude.  Add water sparingly if mixture thickens before grains have softened.


    Combine in a medium mixing bowl:



     2 cups corn meal or 1 cup corn meal and 1 cup soy flour combined
     1 tsp. salt
     2 cups cold water


    When the grain/olive mixture has thickened and the grains are cooked al dente, smooth the top of the mixture and pour the corn meal gruel evenly over it.


    At this point, you can continue cooking, tightly covered, over very low heat on a stove top for about 25-30 minutes, until the corn meal “crust” firms up, OR


    To avoid a layer of scorched pie in the bottom of the pot, place in a preheated 350 degree F oven for 20 minutes.


    If desired, top with:



     1 8oz can tomato sauce
     1/4 cup minced onion
     4-6 oz. shredded cheddar and/or monterrey jack cheese


    Then return to heat a few minutes until cheese melts.


    The number of servings yielded depends on the appetites of your family or guests, and the other dishes served at the meal.  In the beanery, a pot of tamale pie yielded 12 standard servings (and was served with salad), but our policy allowed second helpings for those who wanted more, and many people ate two or three servings.


    The combination here of wheat, corn and soy provides amino acids in balance for a complete protein.  Leftovers can be frozen and reheated with no loss of flavor, and a possible improvement of texture the second time around.


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  • The latest on our recent earthquakes:


    After the biggie yesterday, about three hours later, there was a 5.something quake farther north, near where my friend Mountain Mama lives.  I got an email from her, and they are all right.


    The relatively small amount of damage is due largely to the fact that there are not many man-made structures in the area (since nobody but geologists looks at or cares about the cracks in the Earth), and we have a long history of moderate quakes which have already knocked down some of the more vulnerable structures, plus we have building codes geared to preventing earthquake damage.


    Oddly enough, mobile homes, these flimsy boxes that tornadoes and hurricanes love to toss around, are surprisingly flexible when shaken.  Ours popped and creaked and the floor undulated, but it held together.  Log cabins are also quite flexible.  Where most of our recorded damage occurred was the highways.  Yesterday, I heard reports of truckers stranded on islands of asphalt, between large cracks.  Three of our highways were closed last night, and damage to some supports triggered a shut-down of the pumps on the Trans-Alaska Oil Pipeline.


    There were power outages in the Anchorage area, hundreds of miles from the epicenter, and in Seward, hundreds of miles farther still.  This morning, I’ve heard that the Alaska Railroad has stopped all trains until crews can check the tracks, and that one trucker got out with no injuries after his truck went into a four-foot-deep crack in the road.  Flyovers are planned for today, to asess the “surface ruptures” along the Denali Fault, which extends from The Mountain to the Canadian border and beyond. 


    And now… that second job I got in Anchorage,
    Autumn, 1973—


    Mike, the Community Counselor, was charged with creating a Parole and Probation Center.  It was to be a place where ex-offenders could get the help they needed to get back into civil life after their release.  As his assistant, my job was primarily job development.  I called on employers and advocated that they hire ex-cons.  I built a database of jobs available at those businesses where the management expressed a willingness to employ jailbirds.  When people were released who had skills in a field we hadn’t covered before, I started canvassing businesses in that field to find a job for that inmate, preferably to be waiting for him when he got out.


    At the start, Mike and I shared the offices on the third floor of the McKay Building (once the McKinley Hotel, before the 1964 earthquake, and still showing cracks–it would be condemned a few years later and has since been torn down) with the parole and probation officers.  His office was a janitor closet, and they squeezed another desk into the typing pool for me.  Another new hire, with a job created by new federal funds, was Barb, the public relations officer.  I became her de facto secretary until Mike found a storefront that met our needs, just a block down 4th Avenue from the parole office, next to Household Finance.  That’s the way we always told people how to find us.


    Those first weeks when all I was doing was typing news releases and newsletters for the PR woman, and listening to the chit chat of the clerks, and occasionally making a cold call on some businessman who had been approved by the brass, I was discouraged.  Mike would come in each afternoon and give me a progress report and pep talk.  He was great.  The clients were #1 for him, and everything else:  the politics and red tape, were just the stuff he had to fight to do his job.


    Among five men, there was one female parole officer.  When she had some free time, Vicki would come into the typing pool to drink coffee and schmooze.  I picked up some wonderful gossip, learned the names of many state bureaucrats whose names I would be hearing in the media for years afterward.  One memorable story concerned her immediate boss, who had locked himself in his office one day, with a pistol, and threatened to kill himself.  She had kept him talking on the phone while her male colleagues had contrived to enter the office, rush the distraught drunk, and disarm him.  The poor guy survived and went into detox and then an alcohol treatment program.  After that, he moved to Juneau, to a higher-level administrative position.


    Every P.O. I ever met was nuts one way or another.  If they weren’t already that way when they signed on, the job drove them crazy.  What it does to cops, parole officers and other “innocents” is one of the main things wrong with our criminal justice system.  What it does to convicts is an even bigger problem.  The system creates career criminals.  It takes young misguided or even innocent people and warehouses them along with every kind of sophisticated miscreant.  Prisons are universities of crime.  One conviction, even a very minor one, sets up a slippery slide leading to future incarcerations.


    Recidivism was the problem our agency was designed to prevent.  The idea was to make it as easy and comfortable as possible for people to make the transition from prison to the streets, so they would stay out of prison.  Being locked up doesn’t just disrupt employment, education, marriage and parenting.  It leaves an indelible stigma that drives many ex-cons to try and hide their background when they look for work, leaving them looking over their shoulder from then on, fearing exposure.  The difficulty of getting work with a prison record impels many people into crime and the underground economy.


    I never really enjoyed looking for jobs.  It’s a high-stakes game, where I must be at my very best or even better.  Looking for unspecified jobs for anonymous ex-offenders whose crimes could be anything at all, upped the ante and put me at a distinct disadvantage.  It was the hardest work I’ve ever done, but I believed in what I was doing.  I did it well.  Many of our clients were interviewed and hired before their release.


    Every man or woman who came through our program had a job within at most a few weeks, except for the printer who had been sent up for forgery.  We tried every print shop and publication in Southcentral Alaska without success.  He finally went to work as a carpenter in an organization we were instrumental in starting:  Re-Entry Concern Foundation and its business arm, Re-Construction, Inc., both known as Re-Con.  More on that later.


    Some of the people for whom we found jobs needed several jobs.  With neither work skills nor social skills, and “institutionalized” from being locked up, some of those guys went through one entry-level job after another before hitting one with an understanding employer or where they liked the work enough to put the needed effort into showing up every day.


    A wee digression here, on institutionalization:  I don’t mean simply placement in an institution, the primary sense of the word.  Institutionalization is psych-soc jargon for the physical and mental lethargy and laziness that sets in for most people when they are imprisoned or hospitalized, or shut up in other institutions such as boarding schools or military bases.  The habits that develop vary according to the type of institution, but each of them tends to make adjustment to life outside the institution difficult.  It is not uncommon, especially with older ex-cons, for a man to try to get back into jail when life on the streets gets tough.


    After Mike managed to wangle a state car that either of us could use to contact prospective employers, or to take clients to interviews, etc., I got out of the office more.  By the time our new office space was ready for us, I had weaned Barb, the PR person, from my services and she was trying to retrain the clerks to her exacting standards.  Before we made the move, Mike convinced his bosses that our work would be hindered if it was done under the label of “Parole and Probation Center”, the one we’d been working under thus far.  When the new sign went up over our door, it said, “New Start Center.”


    To be continued….

  • NOLA.com: Newflash: Alaska Earthquake felt in Louisiana


    Yeah, it was a big one.  I’m still searching for local stories that might detail damage in Healy and Cantwell, the towns up the highway closest to the epicenter.

     We’re fine here.  Greyfox said the car bounced around in Talkeetna, and things fell from shelves in Nagley’s Store, but no major damage in our immediate area.

  • EARTHQUAKE UPDATE


    The NEIS websites are catching up now.  The quake is on the list at the URL below.  The 4.5 on Oct. 28 is the one “right under us”, and the 6.7 on Oct. 23 has been upgraded from 6.4, which I had heard previously.


    earthquake: Alaska home


    We’re fine, here.  Some damage to a Navajo stone figurine that fell onto the tile hearth, and a really hot fire in the woodstove as a result of getting agitated, are all we have now to show that anything happened… that and my adrenaline surge.  I still haven’t been away from this keyboard for that smoke, so I’m outta here now.

  • EARTHQUAKE


    The aftershocks haven’t yet stopped.  The initial shake lasted about half a minute.  First it shook, rapidly and hard.  Then it shifted to a seasick rolling motion.  That’s when stuff started falling off shelves and the TV/PS2 monitor over Doug’s head, where he slept on the floor, did a little jump.  That’s when I started yelling for him to wake up and roll under my bed.  I was standing in the doorway.


    Getting there wasn’t easy, with the floor moving unrhythmically under my feet and the dog running frantically back and forth  between my feet.  And the epicenter of this one wasn’t even close to us.  It was miles and miles away.  We had a pretty good shake right under us a week or so ago, but it was deep enough it didn’t do surface damage.  There was another earthquake epicentered near here recently that, at 6.4 was the biggest quake I had ever felt.  This one, at 7.9, tops that.


    I’ve seen no news reports yet of damage nearer to the center, nor have I had any answers yet to the emails I sent to friends nearer the quake’s epicenter.  Last time I checked, the NOAA NEIS (Nat’l Earthquake Information Service) Near Real-Time Earthquake List hadn’t yet added this one.  I wouldn’t have that epicenter and preliminary magnitude info if I hadn’t subscribed to BIGQUAKE email notification.


    I think I’ll go smoke a little dope and let this adrenaline subside.


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  • REVIEW:  DVD: BROTHERHOOD OF THE WOLF (Le Pacte des Loups)


    What is this movie?  Is it a creepy horror film, chop sockey, a costume epic, or a romantic chick flick?  It is all of the above and more.  It is also an action/suspense black comedy, a mythic tragedy, and a blood-and-guts thriller.  Director/screenwriter Christophe Gans bends and blends genre in this pretty movie.


    The setting is France, 1765.  The story is an old french folktale or legend.


    The scenery of France ranges from spooky to breathtakingly beautiful.  Post-production image manipulation gives lighting effects that Greyfox described as, “comfort food for the eyes.”  It is all warm colors and soft contours until the spiky Beast appears on the scene.


    The cast is mostly eye candy, a bunch of beautiful young people who also happen to be able to act.  Production values are good to excellent, as well.  On the production side, I had only one real complaint and two minor quibbles.  The sound effects are over the top.  Swords do not go *schwing* when withdrawn from a body, nor do they swish through the air so loudly. 


    The martial arts choreography is so good, and the actors look so good doing it, that it partially makes up for the absurdity of giving these oriental fighting skills to an eighteenth century Iroquois Indian.  The only other thing that marred my enjoyment of the film were a few landscape long shots of forested horizon and uninteresting sky, where I was allowed enough time to realize that the cameras couldn’t pan without catching anachronistic buildings, power lines, etc.


    I would probably watch this film again, except that I don’t want to see the brutal mass slaughter of wolves or the pathetic end of the unfortunate Beast.  If the movie’s excellent writing, direction and acting hadn’t so thoroughly sucked me in, I’m sure I wouldn’t have been so profoundly affected, so I’m giving it four stars.