April 15, 2003

• So much going on, within me and without me….

  
  

  I got so sick of seeing my gap-toothed sun scowl in the recent profile pic, that I almost put up one of my baby pictures over there.  Then I remembered there was a smiley face over at the realm of redheads.  I got it, cropped out the mystery man (cute guy, wish I could recall who he was) and there it is:  me with front teeth intact… almost thirty years ago… twenty-some fuckin’ years, close to half my lifetime.  Time flies like an arrow… fruit flies like a banana or even an old banana peel.

  
  

  While I’ve been neglecting my SIR, my personal hygeine, and the PS2, and jotting off the occasional mini-rant on politics here, I’ve been focused elsewhere.  KaiOaty is going to have an interactive site when the dust settles over there.  Xanga wasn’t designed for such things, the weblog format takes some stretching to accomodate it, and I’m learning as I go, but field expediency AKA “mickeymouse” is my specialty.

  
  

  I’ve been tinkering with my consciousness, too.  Working in an altered state facilitates creative work for me and I’ve been using psychoactive sound on tapes and CDs since the ‘eighties.  It helps me do readings, write… and when combined with suggestions, it lets me do “reality selection:”  mind-programming. 

  
  

  My recent blowup with the used-car-selling couple made clear to me that I need to work on my temper, so I’ve been listening to suggestions such as these as I write HTML:

  
  

  
  

  The strong are patient. You have the power and ability to remain patient and detached in the midst of chaos. No matter how irrational another person becomes, you remain patient and detached. You recognize what cannot be changed and ignore it. You are even-tempered and easily maintain self-control. You hold back and evaluate instead of immediately responding. You no longer take irrational behavior personally. You know it’s their problem, not yours. You remain patient and detached at all times and under all conditions. Detach and observe. You become an observer who lives in the world but is not of it. You always have a choice as to what you do, who you’re with, where you live, and how you spend your time. Remember this. You attract what you concentrate upon … so you concentrate upon positive, loving, successful things.

  
  

  It is working.  I can tell by the way I feel about and the way I respond to the people in my life and the news of the day.  I like this new state of mind.  And that’s not all.  While I was picking out mind-programming CDs, I chose one to help me work productively:

  
  

  
  

  Every day in every way you become more inspired, energized and motivated to do what you want to do. The fire within you burns hotter by the day. You’re warmed by the awareness of your intensifying motivation. You are persistent, ambitious and determined. You accept this. Your motivational energy begins to boil over. Intense, sizzling energy. Motivation. You drive yourself to achieve. Your motivational energy erupts, driving you forward. Driving you to win. You are a winner with intense motivational drive. It’s time to act. You act. Act, accomplish, win. You spend each moment doing the most productive thing you can to accomplish your goals.

  
  

  Man!  Did I ever need that one!!  Right now, just the thought of wasting time on the PS2 makes me want to stop wasting my time here and get to work. 

  
  

  In a special promotional deal, Dick Sutphen’s organization, ProHypnosis threw in a free copy of the “Say Yes to Life Zapper”.  It could be the most useful of the lot.

  
  

  
  

  You say “yes” to life, and “yes” to love. You experience love in your heart and peace in your soul. You take the time to appreciate all meaningful moments. You master good timing, always sensing the ideal moment to speak or act. Patience and persistence take you where you want to go. You make excellent choices. You claim your power and are confident and self-assured. You live consciously, always recognizing that what is, is, and what isn’t, isn’t. You rise above ego concerns and enjoy life for what it is. Your future excels your past. It will. It does. You are open and attentive to the callings of your soul. Your body is strong and resilient. You bring your dreams and aspirations to fruition. You go with the flow of life. Allow life to happen. You are a channel for the light. You radiate the light, and you invoke the blessing of the source of the light.

  
  

  So, kiddies, don’t mind me and don’t miss me.  I’m still around and sooner or later I’ll get around to all of you (sooner, probably, if you let me know you’re around).  Meanwhile, I’m just over here tuning my mind to the new reality I’ve selected.

  
  

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