January 26, 2008
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Under Pressure
Earlier today, it seemed our hard drive had crashed… or something. Anyway, the computer was down for no reason Doug could discern, and it would not at that time boot up, but at this time, it did. This got me thinking maybe I had better blog while I have the opportunity, since I have been letting it slide so long.
I have been depressed — depressed but not sad. I know it is a neurochemical thing, and I am not letting it get to me. I have cabin fever, am going stir crazy, and am prudently avoiding any and all activity other than what must be done. Even so, I am often out of breath and always impaired in my neuromuscular functioning. It’s something I can live with, but I do crave a little run out in the snow to catch some peachy sunset light or to see the aurora borealis, the full moon, whatever. I wouldn’t want to be out there very long or go very far, but for now, just for now, I’m not going anywhere.
Being depressed is only part of why I haven’t been blogging. Power outages have also contributed to my absence from here. About a week ago, the electricity was off from Saturday night until Monday morning. Doug and I lit a bunch of candles and read. Well, I read, and played with the dog, and just sat and thought. Doug read some, got out his Legos and did some building, played with melted wax, shoveled snow, chopped wood…..
The power outage was relatively tolerable at first. We called the outage reporting line and learned that the outages extended from Hatcher Pass to Trapper Creek. For those not familiar with the Susitna Valley, or the geographically curious, that’s a big area. Several U.S. states are not that big. It became less easy to tolerate when the phones went down. Phones were down again today — another reason I have not been on the internet (keep losing the connection a lot.
Anyway, I just wanted to make an appearance, show the flag, update this thing. I had been feeling vaguely neglectful. Now Greyfox is trying to get through to me on the phone. Gotta go.
Comments (11)
i too haven’t been blogging like i should. Whatever it is, it has gone around with a lot of people. Sorry to hear that you are having a bit of a rough time there… i know what you mean by the power being out for a bit… its okay for a short bit.. hate having the phone out at the same time too…
Hope you get to feeling better….
Out of sight
though not out of heart and mind
I wish you many
gifts and rich blessings
as you hang in and hang on
Spirit-stretching times
always Unique
Well, here is to the depression lifting and hoping for a speedy spring!
I truly hate it when the power is out, in our last house winter meant many many outages sometimes for days in a row and we live in the middle of a big city.
Hang in there!
I too, am depressed and have cabin fever-I long for Spring. I hope there are no more outages and that you continue to feel healthier. I went out in the snow (when it wasn’t too cold), and made a snow angel-made me feel better.
I’m going a little stir crazy myself, so I can surely relate.
I’ve been depressed too. Hang in there.
I wish for you a sunny day, a very bright sunny day… I understand so much the need for sunshine.
Hugs, Tricia
Yes, hang in there. We’re all wishing for a sunny day together.
Good to see you K…I hear you loud and clear on the neurochemical thing. I hate feeling depressed-but-not-sad. I’d rather be sad. Thank God for candles. I’m going to set mine up for tomorrow, I have a few around, but when I burn too many too long the walls get gross and I hate washing them. Can you do anything creative without freezing?
Hang on in there lady!
u need 2 get a couple more cats. then u won’t be depressed no mo’.