October 20, 2007

• brain belongs to body

  Mind over matter appears to be something I can handle as long as the matter is functioning within acceptable parameters.  That’s counterintuitive, isn’t it?  If it’s mind over matter, the mind should be able to rise above the matter’s malfunctions.

  Mind is not in the brain, they say, but internal evidence suggests to me that my mind is at least of the brain and the brain can’t get out of the body.

  Greyfox quoted me something recently, from George Carlin, something like, the sicker you are the more likely you are to forget to take your medicine.  I’m that sick, and then some.

  I have been experiencing random waves of rogue brain chemistry:  unaccountable sensations of wellbeing followed by suffocating waves of malaise and dysphoria that make my hair hurt.  During one of those waves of phantom wellness a day or two ago, I got up and tried to cook something to eat.  It was just a simple meal.  I was too shaky to even attempt much, but as soon as the vapor started rising from the pan, it choked the breath out of me.  I sat on the kitchen stool until I could walk again, and Doug finished cooking whatever it was.  I don’t remember… don’t remember eating it, either, but I suppose I did.

  I know I took my vitamins after breakfast today.  I remember it clearly because swallowing the pills almost made me puke.  I hope they were the right pills.

  It snowed again.  I have that perennial seasonal urge to go south, but dammit I’m too sick to travel even if I had the fare.

  Ignore me.  I’ll get over it, one way or the other.

  

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