May 12, 2006

• pretty good timing

  I wouldn’t have known that Xanga was down yesterday if it hadn’t been
  for a plaintive phone call from Greyfox.  He waited around the
  library an extra hour or two, thinking that the site would be back up
  when they said they would.  He wanted to get on to check comments
  and join in the discussion of our collaborative effort on native-american-spirituality-tradition-and-mythology, but didn’t get on until today.

  I had given myself a couple of days off, on the theory that if I rested
  the muscles I use staying upright on this chair and clicking these keys
  and the mouse, they might ease up on the weird sensations.  It
  would be pain if I thought of it in those terms, but I go behind the
  pain and what I feel is heat, tension, pressure and, weirdest of all
  and hardest to endure, an electric buzz that’s composed of tingle, rapid tremor, and heat.  My muscles feel pumped up like they used to get after a workout.

  After two days of rest, I was feeling somewhat better today until I got
  up and active.  In less than half an hour at the keyboard the buzz
  is back.  Even before I got on here, my legs had folded up under
  me, leaving me clinging to a countertop and yelping in distress. 
  I didn’t even get all the houseplants watered before my legs wore out.

  I’m out of the pills that keep me breathing, so I need to drive up to
  the clinic today.  And that will do it for me.  When I get
  back from Sunshine, I’ll play Phantom Brave for a while, then I’ll read
  until I sleep.  Maybe I’ll have enough energy to eat once or
  twice, too.  Maybe not.

  Hey, at least the weather is pleasant — so damned pleasant that the
  first big mosquito hatch is out.  Up north, above the Arctic
  Circle, it’s the season of the midnight sun!

  

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