August 9, 2005
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Sometimes I wish…
…I were not so self-aware. Living with myself is like living
with a boring and predictable partner. …but, no,
sometimes I surprise myself, and the surprises are almost never
pleasant. I don’t exceed my own expectations. Usually, I
fail to meet my expectations. I guess I don’t know myself all
that well after all. What I really wish is that others understood
me as well as I understand myself, but that’s not bloody likely with
that square between my natal Sun in Virgo and Sagittarius rising.Now I feel I need to expand and elucidate because I have no desire to
be mysterious or obscure. …but, but… it really doesn’t go any
deeper or further than that. Mercury is still retrograde and the
Sun is opposing Neptune. My blood sugar is low. Need
food….
Duty and Loyalty: You serve your purpose and do
what you must do. People would consider you
someone to rely on, and one who keeps his/her
word when he/she gives it.Which Characteristic From the Samurai Code Matches You Best? (You may find out your best trait)
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Comments (8)
Sometimes I feel that way, too. There’s no analyzing myself out of that thoughtframe, but I always figure that it’s better to be aware of shortcomings and have the opportunity to improve and progress than to ignore them and hope they never come up. Even when it has to do with meeting expectations, it gives the chance to see whether or not the expectations are too high.
Hi sweety–guess what, I scored chugo, too–what a surprise!
Just started a new blog on the neightbor, will finish it later.
Cat news–last night, Frankie, Silkie, and CC all peaceful together on the porch. Sigh!
Finally–understood? You honestly wanna be understood? Shit, I’d settle for just being accepted. . . . .
hahah i want to take that but i doubt they will have my true battle cry:
“KAAH-LEE-AHH”.
I lied, but its a realy battle cry from the goosebump book, “How I Got My Shrunken Head”
I’m a Taurus on the cusp of Aries with a Scorpio rising. That is all I know bout my astrological crap.
It has been said that there is no one more critical than a virgo of him/herself.
One of my biggest self-awareness problems is that I keep forgetting what I make myself aware of. Time passes, I have another realization, and then a sense of deja vu. “Wait a minute, didn’t I already know this? Shit, I don’t remember.”
but you’ll be alive – and self aware – until you’ll give yourself expectations to achieve…….
Like my momma used to say: wish in one hand and shit in the other one. See which one gets filled first…